Thursday, February 28, 2013

Is This It?

A 3 year old..

A 1 year old..
Pregnant with Twins..

The big question is-are we done? Are we done having kids? Will we be a family of 6? Are we complete?

I have SO many thoughts on this subject and the final answer is, I dont know!

I have always wanted 5 kids. Its a number I picked and have stuck with it. Tom says he would prefer 4. He says 5 is a circus. ;) I wanted to be done having kids by 30. I can totally squeeze another on in over the next 4 years.

On one hand, I cant imagine this being my last pregnancy. On the other, I cant imagine going to the RE and asking him to get me pregnant, with 4 small children at home. It feels so greedy.

Tom and I talked and agreed that we wont make a "final" decision until our babies are 1 year. We will keep our 4 embryos frozen and wait until enough time has passed and we can make a rational decision. Im not a huge fan of doing anything permanent. I tell him that we pay so much money to get pregnant, I dont want to spend money on the opposite. 

So, we will wait and see! 

I will say...if there are two baby boys in my belly...there will be #5!

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

First OB Appointment

Yesterdays appointment was amazing!! I decided to take Gavin with so Dr. K could see him again. He was an angel, babbling and snacking in his stroller the whole time. I talked with the nurse and filled out the necessary paperwork. I gave urine, got weighed and had my bp taken. It was a bit high and I told her I'm always nervous before an ultrasound. Dr. K came in and was so sweet. We talked a bit and then she said she was excited and we would skip right to the ultrasound. FINE BY ME!

Babies look awesome! They grew so much!! We sat and watched their hearts beat and waited for them to wiggle around. At one point, she had them both on the screen and they moved at the same time. I couldn't wipe the silly grin off my face. I am so crazy about these babies!! She said everything looked just perfect..the sacs were great, the 3rd sac has been absorbed, there is good space between them. It really couldn't have gone better! She mentioned that baby A would be our photogenic one and I agreed and told her that B is always hiding.

Baby A

Baby B

The Cupcakes

We had to back up and do the rest of the appointment...pap, breast exam, etc. I need to go give my blood, but skipped it yesterday since I had Gavin. I'm hoping to go later this afternoon before our insurance changes on Friday!

There were a lot of questions answered. She said that protein is very important in my diet and to try and have some every 3 hours! She said no to running..stick with the elliptical/walking. Dr. told me that by 24 weeks, I should arrange to have someone come over in the afternoon and let me rest. Term for twins is 36 weeks and 38 is the max they'd let me go. Ill start going to the specialist at 20 weeks and get a growth ultrasound every 4 weeks. Weight gain should be 35-45 lbs.

I go for my NT scan at 12 weeks and am supposed to have an OB appointment that day as well. I don't have our new insurance info yet and am hoping Ill have it soon so I can schedule it! 

My doc does take our new insurance, so I will stick with them until we move and then make the big decision to stay with my OB or find a new one closer to our new home. 

Monday, February 25, 2013

Cupcake Monday-9 Weeks

No picture..and its almost 9pm..but it least its still Monday!

How far along? 9 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Even

Maternity clothes? I pulled them out and have been wearing the jeans. So much more comfortable!

Sleep: Depends. I am crazy exhausted, still. Friday night, I was in bed from 9pm-8am and was wiped out by 11am.

Best moment this week: Time with Daddy

Movement: Cant wait to feel it!

Food cravings: Cravings continue to be out of control. Today I craved chips and sloppy joes.

Gender: Thinking one of each

Labor Signs: No way

Belly Button in or out? Innie

What I miss: TOM!

What I am looking forward to: Tomorrow!

Milestones: Every day is a milestone..closer to holding our babies!

Okay, I gotta say..last week kicked my ass. Tom moved out on Monday night and the rest of the week dragged. The days are LONG without him. Thursday was miserable for everyone. We had plans to go see Eli Young Band and bought tix in December. I was SO looking forward to this time with him. We came home from music class and the boys saw Tom for the first time in days. Gavin was running to him and him and Trevor collided. Gavins face slammed on the floor, shoving his entire pacifier into his mouth. It was horrifying and a bloody mess. We felt SO bad for him. We went to the ER because the bleeding wouldnt stop. It was not a good trip. The ER was empty and yet we waited 2 hours. They said no stitches but gave us an antibiotic and said to do a liquid diet until our follow up on Saturday.Saturday, we found out he actually sliced his frenulum. It will heal like a scab, but will not grow back. Thankfully, nothing else was damaged. On top of that pain, all 4 of his top teeth broke through at once! He is a trooper and acted pretty normal.

We really enjoyed our weekend with Tom. His birthday was yesterday and it was very low key. We wanted nothing more than to relax together. 

Tomorrow is my first OB appointment and I am so excited! I have so many questions I want to ask her. I am dying to see the babies again. Ill be a nervous wreck from about noon on tomorrow. As soon as I see those two heartbeats, Ill be okay. 

The rest of this week will be spent preparing for Gavins birthday party this weekend. I cant believe my little man will be one on Saturday! We had his pictures taken last weekend. Here are some of the best!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Cupcake Monday-8 Weeks

My weeks go up on Saturday and since I rarely blog on the weekends, I decided I will do my updates on Monday. What better way to start out the week. :) Note to self for next week? Take photo first thing in the morning! Otherwise, you will look as tired as you feel!

How far along? 8 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Even

Maternity clothes? Soon! 3rd pregnancy and twins inside..the belly is a-growin'!

Sleep: Already not going well! I am exhausted, but it takes a lot to get comfortable.

Best moment this week: Ultrasound!!

Movement: Cant wait to feel it!

Food cravings: My cravings are nuts already. So far, I have craved mashed potatoes, cheese friend and cookies and milk! They are the extreme cravings where I want it right now!

Gender: I think its 2 girls or one of each

Labor Signs: No way

Belly Button in or out? Innie

What I miss: Having energy

What I am looking forward to: First OB appointment. NT scan!

Milestones: 2 months pregnant! Babies look more like actual babies!

So, Tom and I were anxious for another ultrasound..and didnt want to wait until my OB appointment on the 26th. I found a local place that does elective ultrasounds and they offered a "first peek" one. It was only $39 and I knew it would ease our minds to go. We are so glad we did!! We got to show Trevor the babies, hear both heartbeats, (Which were 155 & 164!), got some good pictures and checked on the 3rd sac. I did acknowledge the sac so the tech wouldnt be alarmed. It has gotten smaller, so we were relieved! Also, baby A and baby Bs sacs didnt look so different in size and we were happy about that. 

The tech was awesome and you could tell she loved what she did. She said everything looked perfect and she couldnt wait to see us back for the gender scan. Ill be 15 weeks on April 6th, so if we dont find out before then..we will go that day. Since its a Saturday, we may have a little party to share the news that evening. 

We love these babies already and cant wait to watch them grow. 

Baby A

Baby B

Perfect cupcakes-Ill never get over seeing two babies on the screen. 

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Valentines Day

Four years ago, Valentines Day took on a new meaning for mine and Tom's love story. It was the retrieval for my first IVF cycle. We retrieved a perfect dozen that day, and got a perfect son out of it. Happy conception day, Trevor Michael! We will always spend Valentines Day celebrating you.

This year, its a bit bittersweet. Valentines Day is Gavins official LAST, first holiday. In a few weeks, our little man will be 1 and its unbelievable to me. Why must kids grow up so quickly?

Today also marks one month since we found out I was pregnant. I pointed it out to Tom last night and he couldn't believe it. He said, "Time flies when its full of good news." I couldnt agree more. Its fun to think I was 37 weeks pregnant on Valentines Day last year and this year I am almost 8 weeks pregnant, with twins!

I cant wait to have 4 little Valentines to kiss next year. 

Monday, February 11, 2013

Released from RE! & 3rd Sac?

We had our third ultrasound today and all is well with the cupcakes. Baby A measured at 7 weeks 2 days and had a heartrate of 136 bpm. Baby B measured at 7 weeks exactly and had a heartrate of 144 bpm.

Now, here is the confusing part. There is a third sac. It was not present at my first scan, but was there last week. The first thing my tech noticed was that the third sac had grown since last time. Last week, she called it questionable sac and labeled it with a ?. Today, she labeled it sac C and said it measured at 5 weeks 2 days, but there is nothing inside it. She said she would know more by my next ultrasound. What the heck? We only transferred 2 embryos, so I thought 3 sacs was impossible. Apparently, an embryo can split inside one sac or a sac itself can split? And its measuring exactly 2 weeks behind. How is that possible?

In the picture below, you can see how baby A's sac is huge and B & C's would be much bigger if combined.

They didnt seem concerned at the office. I got my congratulations letter and instructions to see my OB. I can drop to 2 endometrin a day and stop my estrace. I cant help but worry a bit about whats going on inside my uterus! I will say, we love these babies so much already and just hope A & B continue to be strong and grow appropriately. We want to hold them in our arms this September!

Friday, February 8, 2013

Best Week EVER!

That moment, when you dont think your week could get any better..and then it does? It happened!

Wednesday morning, I was at my sisters house, discussing cake pops with a friend whos making them for Gavins birthday party. My phone did the alert for a new email and I clicked on it while talking with her. As soon as I saw the subject, my heart was racing.

I started to fan my face and tears welled in my eyes. I clicked on the email and read, Congratulations. I see his start date of February 19th. I start jumping up and down and screaming..telling her how this is the email we have been waiting for. I couldnt believe it. Tom was at home, sleeping and I wanted to run home and tell him ASAP. I let the kids finish playing and then we headed back home. I put Gavin in his CPD romper and  walked into the bedroom. I had my camera on my phone going..Tom rolled over and I said. "Gavin wanted to dress like Daddy today." Tom replied with, "he looks cute" and started talking to G. I said, "Babe. You start February 19th!"..he was still half asleep, but so thrilled. 

My husband was offered his dream job. Its still not real. A Chicago Police Officer. What an honor!

I am so proud of him. The hiring process has been stressful and draining for our entire family. Its been month after month of uncertainty in our future. I am relived that we can finally move forward and plan everything out! 

That being said, everything will be turned upside down the next few months. He has to reside in the city on the first day of the academy. He will be living with his friend John, who is also in the academy and started a few months ago. That means Ill be a single mother of 2 young boys, while pregnant, for an undecided amount of time. Our current lease is up May 1, but we may try to get out of it a bit earlier so we can live together again. Its going to be tough, especially until I start to feel better. Ill need to start packing, donating and organizing. Tom helps SO much when he is home that itll be a huge change. 

Then theres the insurance issue. We are insured on day 1, but Im not sure what the coverage is like or what docs we could use. Im not sure if I should keep my OB who I love and travel into the suburbs for the many appointments and then be an hour away from the hospital. I dread switching pediatricians. One thing at a time, I have to keep reminding myself of that.

But, really. Monday, we saw 2 perfect heartbeats in our twins and Wednesday Tom gets offered his dream job. We are walking around with goofy grins and swelling bellies. :0)

Monday, February 4, 2013

In Love!

Today will always be one of the best days of my life. There are two tiny hearts beating inside my body right now. Words cant express the feeling of holding your breath until you see the flickers. Such sweet relief and joy! Babies are growing beautifully. We are madly in love!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Almost Monday

It's Saturday night and I am dying to see my babies again. I can not wait for our ultrasound Monday. I can only hope they both grew appropriately and have heartbeats.

I feel like with two babies there is double the chance something can go wrong. Yet, I can totally see us with them in our arms this September.

I am feeling very pregnant every day. The exhaustion is overwhelming. Tom has been going above and beyond helping with the boys. I feel nauseous on and off throughout the day. I get a headache about every other day. No complaints here. Just so thankful.

Yesterday, Tom took the last physical for his dream job. He passed it and filled out some pre-employment papers. He took the written exam in December 2010 and has been going through other parts of testing since September 2012. He is finally done and passed everything! Now, we wait for a phone call with a start date. Between that and two healthy heartbeats, February has a chance to beat January out for best month ever.