Monday, April 30, 2012
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Monday, April 23, 2012
Yesterday, I went to pee quick just before I went to put on my pretty dress for Gavin's baptism. Much to my surprise, there was blood. I sat, puzzled, and dug out a tampon. I came out and told Tom I thought I just got my period..and went on with my day. (Thankfully that happened then and not an hour later or I would have been quite embarrassed when I stood up in the church!)
It was light, but continuous. I still wasn't convinced that's what it was. Today, I am sure.
I went to the doc last week and was told I am completely healed. I am exclusively breastfeeding my SEVEN week old baby. And I got my period? It took about 9 months for me to get it with Trevor. I kinda feel like a freak show..anyone else ever get it this early?
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Friday, April 20, 2012
I had my 6 week check up this past Wednesday night. I decided not to take Gavin at the last minute because Tom had already changed him into his jammies and was going to feed him a bottle before bed. I arrived at the office and sat in the waiting room. There was a couple there with their daughter and I felt so naked with no kids. They were talking with the receptionist about her becoming a big sister and I smiled, thinking about how much fun it was that first appointment when Tom and Trevor came back for the ultrasound. Such an exciting time.
I talked with the nurse, got my finger pricked and bp taken. All checked out fine. I sat in the room and listened to the doc in the next room. (I swear these walls are paper thin and you can hear everything!) I heard the heartbeat of their sweet babe and got jealous. I wished I was there for that reason and not just an exam.
Doc came in, chatted for a few and then did a pap and exam. Everything was fine, as expected. Talked about birth control and said no thanks. He said see you in a year. I joked about hoping to be back there sooner. Then I got sad. I have no idea when Ill be in that office again. Listening to a heartbeat. Showing my sons their sibling. I realize my baby is 7 weeks old. I am not stressing about being pregnant, yet.
Its just, when I think about when it comes time to start trying, aka FET's..a flood of emotions comes over me. Getting pregnant after Trevor was hard. It was draining. It took us 6 long months of straight cycling. I cried a lot. We suffered a miscarriage and a chemical pregnancy. We had to use 8 embryos to get Gavin. I am terrified of where our broken road will lead us this time.
And yet, I know its worth it. One giggle from Trevor or glimpse at Gavin's big eyes is worth every shot, every tear, every penny, every second of those months of pain.
Monday, April 16, 2012
Trevor is a busy bee, I tell you. His social calendar is full. Playdates, fun days out, special treats, you name it. He is such a happy and appreciative child, we love doing things that make him smile. Heres a little catch up since Gavin's been born..
Irish parade to watch Brady and Laney dance
Friday, April 13, 2012
I cant believe its been six weeks since Gavin came into our lives. Its gone by in the blink of an eye and yet, it feels like he has been here forever.
Six weeks is a big mark for postpartum healing. Its time for me to start watching what I eat(the toughest part), exercising(I know it'll be hard to find the time) and ttc #3(that may have started a few weeks ago).
Here are the photos we were gifted after Gavin served as her model. He was 12 days old.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
We did most of our Easter celebratin' on Saturday this year. We started our day at bites with the bunny at our park district. We've gone the past few years. It is exactly what its called..bites to eat-donuts, banana slices, cinnamon rolls, juice, etc. The bunny is in the corner and you can go take as many photos as you'd like. Trevor has been loving the bunny this year. He was the 3rd we had seen. He was a little hesitant at first and needed me to be with him. He warmed up once we set Gavin in bunbun's arms.