Worse Case

Sissy lost the baby. Wednesday. Her 27th birthday. There are no other words.

Terrible News

I cant believe I have to post this..my sister is bleeding again. She is pretty sure she is miscarrying. She goes on Thursday for her first and possibly last OB appointment. My heart is in a million pieces. Last time was supposed to be a fluke. It wasn't supposed to happen again. All she wants is to complete their family, have a 4th child. Why is it so hard?

I have no idea what to do. Last time, I gave her a card and flowers. I told her how hard it was to be the sister on the other side. Do I give flowers again? Another card? Do I offer to take the kids for a day so her and my brother in law can mourn? Do I simply hug her and let her cry? No, no, then Id cry. How do I deal with these feelings of loss? I love that baby and always will. I am trying so hard to imagine how she feels, but its impossible to. Ive never had a loss like her.

How do I deal with trying for another baby? Who can I call to talk about it? Do I keep her closed off or include her in the details? I cant believe this is happening. I just cant believe it.

I'm going to give this angel extra snuggles tonight. He is a miracle; my miracle. I pray my sister witnesses a miracle on Thursday and sees that little flicker of a strong baby. Please, please!


Oh, forgot to mention. Tomorrow is her birthday. Boo!

Piggy Toes

Notice anything odd about this picture?

Trevor thinks its pretty funny!

He is HOBO baby!
Seriously? What is this kid doing in his sleep to make that happen? Its not the first pair. Id say its the 4th or 5th! Monster feet do have a drawback..

Sunday Update

Thanks for all the sweet comments on our pictures. We had such a beautiful day for them! The day before was freezing and cloudy. We were fortunate the weather took a turn for the better! Trevor napped the whole way there, which worked out great. When we took him out of the carseat, he had a bloody lip! It was so random and of course, super awesome timing. We did his pics first and he was such a ham. We changed him and he was somewhat fussy for the family pics. She did such a great job, you cant tell that was the case. If you want info about our photog, contact me directly at TERobertson18{at}aol.com.

There are going to be some major changes to the blog soon. I'm a bit outdated here. Still says I am 22. Yah, 22 and 4 months. There is still a countdown to our 4th anniversary, etc. I have a design in the works along with a new blog email so I am easy to get a hold of. One thing I'm not sure of is the new title. We got our Peanut..and were working on a sibling..any ideas are welcome!

Sissy goes for her ultrasound on Thursday. I am very anxious to find out the fate of that little baby. She goes back and forth with doubt and hope. I really need that baby to be healthy in there!! Or babies?!

Speaking of babies..I want one. Another. I know, Trevor is only 6 months. I want to be one of those stories. The stories that give others hope. Ya know, that girl that spent a ton of money, ached for so long and finally got her miracle baby. THEN, she got pregnant on her own right after. What a shock! I just want my body to work for me. It was super at being pregnant and giving birth. Cant it just be easy getting pregnant, too? Pretty please?!

Ill leave you with the many faces of Trevor:

Family Pics

This is where he deicded to give Mama a french kiss..

I am in love with these pictures, too. Im already looking forward to doing another set for his 1st birthday. Sigh, my baby boy is growing up.

Photo Shoot

Here are Trevors six month photos. I am madly in love with them. I can not choose which is my favorite. So here are my..many, many favorites. :)