Thursday, July 30, 2009

Good, Bad, Ugly

The Good
Tommy took the physical exam for the Cook County Sheriffs Department this past Saturday. He passed it with no problem. Yesterday, he received a letter stating that his oral interview is scheduled for August 13th. That's in 2 weeks! We were so surprised about the quick turnaround. If you remember, my Dad is a Cook County Sheriff, and has a ton of connections in the department. In fact, many of the men personally know Tom from working security for my Dads business. This job would change our life, for wayyyyyy better! We are really optimistic that this is going to happen. Ill keep you posted.

The Bad
We still haven't sold our house, therefore we are still staying at my parents. I am starting to really stress about what we will do if the house doesn't sell in the next two months. We would go into ridiculous amount of debt if we had to pay rent and our mortgage. So, unless we sell the house, were stuck. I am 6 months pregnant and should be painting a nursery and organizing the gifts we've been given. Instead I am wondering where we will be in 3 months and annoyed beyond belief. We are going to the house this weekend, which is 3 hours from my parents, to clean and pack up some stuff. Its really tough being there, knowing we are paying for this brand new, 4 bedroom house every month..but not living in it. Its torture! I really hope someone falls in love with our house soon and decides to make it their own.

The Ugly
I am still not sleeping. Its really starting to wear on me. I fall asleep fine and I am very comfortable, so its not a matter of me getting a better pillow or drinking warm milk. Its the actual sleep..its just not happening. I toss and turn all night. I constantly wake up due to dreams or sleeping so lightly. Its getting really difficult to get out of bed in the morning. I know I could ask the doctor for some medicine, but I am trying to avoid pumping my body with anything foreign. Any suggestions here? I go to the doctor next Wednesday, so I plan on asking her then.

*I have been slacking the blog department lately. I plan on doing a "Weekend in Pictures" post as well as a pregnancy-related one that I have debated writing for a while. Also, I was thinking of having Tommy do a Q & A post. You ladies know SO MUCH about me and my life, maybe youd like to hear what he has to say?*

Monday, July 27, 2009

Perfect Summer Day

We spent Sunday with our nephews, Mikey and Brady and niece, Delaney. We swam by Toms moms house, played with water balloons, had lunch and relaxed. Then, we went to a pottery place to paint something for their new cousin and something for themselves. Lastly, we had ice cream. It was one of those days where your heart feels full. I love these kids!

Later, Laney and I had a "girl" photo shoot. Ya know, Me, her and Hadley. :) I really wonder if our baby will look as much like me as she does. Or will she come out looking like my sister..just to be fair?!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

25 Weeks

How far along? 25 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 7 lbs.
Maternity clothes? Yep
Sleep: Still not happenin'
Best moment this week: Isnt every moment great?
Movement: It has gotten SO much stronger
Food cravings: Chocolate..I'm going to have choco milk in my boobs by the time she arrives..
Gender: A perfect Princess
Labor Signs: None here
Belly Button in or out? Flat and squishy
What I miss: Feeling like I "know" my body
What I am looking forward to: EVERYTHING! I made a little calendar on my blog so I can keep track of the craziness
Weekly Wisdom: Naps are your friend :)
Milestones: Shes growing like a weed nowadays!

I booked our 3D ultrasound for August 18th! Only a few more weeks until we see her again! They have a promo running where you get a free 30 min. prenatal massage certificate. I'm going to hold that one until the very end, as I am using my certificate from Tom at 27 weeks.

I am trying to find a good maternity photographer in the area and its very difficult! I want the pics to be perfect..after what it took to get us here AND because we missed the shoot in Florida.

Question-How do you think we should spell Hadley's nickname? Haddie, Hady or Haddy?

Friday, July 24, 2009

Show and Tell

Its time for a little show and tell. Here are some of the things we have bought/been given in the past week or so:

Tiffany over at "Slow Journey to Parenthood" started
her bow collection!

My mom got her a teeny bathing suit, in case we go anywhere
indoors this winter.

I bought this bikini on clearance at Old Navy. I adore it.

Here are a few of the snuggly outfits we bought
at Kohls. My personal fave is the cupcake one.

So, I bought myself this dress months ago to wear this summer. I was at
Old Navy last week and couldn't believe I found a matching baby one and it was on clearance. Looks like next summer we will be attending a country concert together..:)

Tom thinks its so funny that you cant tell I'm pregnant from behind. We decided to document it in a series.

Looking normal..

Still normal...

Theres something there...

BAM! Shes pregnant!

One woman commented yesterday about how she couldn't believe I was having a girl because of how I was carrying. I am hoping Hadley hasn't grown boy parts..I don't think he would enjoy wearing bikinis and bows. ;)
Happy Fridaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Baby Update

Thanks so much for you input on my pain. Round ligament pain crossed my mind, but I thought that was more of an achy feeling, not this sharp stabbing. It has been there, only on the right side, on and off the past few days. Sometimes I don't feel much of anything, other times it hurts no matter what I do. Its a small price to pay, if you ask me.

I booked and paid for our birthing class. The first one is September 8th. It runs for 5 weeks. I'm also taking a breastfeeding class in early October.

We are looking into having a 3D/4D ultrasound done. There are quite a few local facilities, so I am currently comparing prices and such. I want to do it before 30 weeks.

It looks like we will have three baby showers. One for friends, one for Toms family and one for my side. We did the same for our bridal showers and we got everything we needed! I think on will be Aug. 28th, one is for sure Sept. 19th and the last may be as late as Oct. 10th. I put in a request of that being the last possible day. I have a gut feeling she will arrive in late October and I want to be prepared!

I have been super hungry lately. I eat 3 meals a day and snack often. I hope I don't start gaining a ton of weight.

My mom and I went to Kohl's the other night, since they were having a huge sale. Ama(what the grandkids call her) wanted to buy her 5th grandchild some fall clothes! We bought some of the snuggliest and cutest Carters outfits. She also bought me a pair of maternity shorts and "going out" jeans for the fall. I felt like I was 15 again, having her buy me clothes. She truly is the best.

Next Friday, my mom, sister and I are going to this huge Gymboree resale. They go twice a year and get the cutest outfits for a great price. All of us are pumped to be buying girl clothes again.

My sister and I are 4 years apart. Delaney and Hadley will be 4 exactly years apart. Its going to be "us" all over again..:)

That's enough rambling for now. I'm going to devour some cheese pizza..

Monday, July 20, 2009

Pictures and Pains

I am super tired but wanted to post these pics before I climb in bed for some cuddling and CSI. I started having this pain in my lower right side last night, during the night. It continued all day. I dont know if shes laying on something funny or what, but it hurts! She was really active today, as usual, so I dont know how that could be. Any suggestions of what it could be, ladies? The pain is sharp and located..if I were to hold my round belly(like in the picture below), itd be right under my right hand, if that makes sense.

This is following a 2 hour nap, which is why I look tired

Look at that belly button..

Laney being silly, but you can see my belly here

Ready for the wedding. I LOVE blue and brown together, they
were our wedding colors.

Guinness loves trips to the cottage..

...Cooper livin' the life!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

24 Weeks

How far along? 24 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 6 lbs.
Maternity clothes? Dreading buying fall ones..due to the cost
Sleep: Whats that?
Best moment this week: All the stranger comments telling me how cute I am
Movement: Shes a wild one!
Food cravings: Chips and dip, pickles
Gender: GIRL!
Labor Signs: Nope
Belly Button in or out? Its flat, Ill have to take a pic
What I miss: Sleep
What I am looking forward to: Shower planning
Weekly Wisdom: Cherish these last few months as a "party of 2"
Milestones: VIABILITY!!

Pictures up tomorrow, as we are in Wisconsin this weekend. Happy Saturday everyone and Happy Viability Day, Hadley!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Still Hurting

My friend just told me she is pregnant with her second child. She has a son who is a year and a half and a stepson who is 7. Here's my question..why did it hurt to get the news? I don't get it. I am 6 months pregnant and I felt pain when hearing a pregnancy announcement? It was the same pain as before I was pregnant..the happiness of a new life, but sadness that I wasn't responsible. Six days, six months, six years..I don't think that familiar pain will ever go away.

That being said, I wanted to post lyrics to an amazing song that jumped out when I heard it. This is for all you women still waiting on your miracle. You have no idea how often each of you are on my mind. .

One Day You Will by Lady Antebellum

"You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now

But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet

[Repeat Chorus]

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of

One day you will
Oh one day you will"

I find myself already stressing about our second child. Will it come easy? Will we be surprised? Will we need to do IVF again? Will it take more than one try this time around? I only have a few months left of this pregnancy and I'm dreading going back to not being pregnant. Of course, we will have our sweet girl as a product of our blood, sweat and tears..but I will be go from a pregnant infertile woman to an infertile woman. Sigh..

Monday, July 13, 2009


Sunday was my cousins bridal shower. We had a tea party; it was really cute! My Moms side of the family is huge, and my Dads is non-existent. We rarely get together because there are so many of us. The typical gatherings are weddings, funerals, graduations, and Christmas..not enough in my opinion. This year, there are two weddings, a few graduations and our baby coming, so I have seen more of them and I love it. Jessy and James got married in March in California, where they live. We showered her Sunday and the wedding reception is this coming Saturday. I am really looking forward to it.
Big, happy family

Molly's wedding is two weeks after I am due. Her shower will be some time in September. There has been some talk about when my showers will be. We had three bridal showers, but may combine families and only have two baby showers. I am still in disbelief that I will be the one the shower is for..

This not sleeping is starting to take a toll on me. I am utterly exhausted. I am chugging through this week, knowing this weekend will be fun and relaxing. I was thinking August would be low-key, but my calendar has been taken over and filled. The wedding I am standing up in is September 5th. Her shower is the beginning of August and her bachelorette party is the end.
I put a picture of the dress were wearing months ago, but its not the one we ended up buying. She changed her mind a million times and finally decided on this dress, in red.

Its supposed to cover any tummy issues and I think it will look funny with a big belly. Oh well, the day is not about me. :)

Conclusion of this life is taken over by showers and weddings for the next few months. Oh, and I'll be having a baby.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

23 Weeks

How far along? 23 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 5 lbs.-seem to be gaining a lb. a week
Maternity clothes? Thank God for the ones I borrowed, I havent had to buy much of anything
Sleep: Horrible! :(
Best moment this week: Doctors visit
Movement: Allll day, every day
Food cravings: French toast
Gender: GIRL!
Labor Signs: No no, no
Belly Button in or out? Almost flat
What I miss: My memory
What I am looking forward to: Next weekend. Cottage, wedding and viability :)
Weekly Wisdom: The to-do list may be overwhelming; we can handle it!
Milestones: Seeing kicks from the outside!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Friday Ramblings

I have been feeling great since we returned from Florida. I am going to presume the travel had major influence on my health and will be staying on land until after baby's birth..

I have been super clumsy and forgetful the past 2 weeks. Its driving me nuts! Ive heard of this problem with pregnancy, but I thought it was just a joke..I have scrapes and bruises to prove its affect on me. One day I slammed my elbow while closing the trunk. Today I hit myself in the head with the microwave door. I am constantly loosing my train of thought while talking. I left my $600 necklace on the nightstand in Florida. I am usually so put together, so this is really odd for me!

I have not been sleeping well. I am super comfy in the bed, but sleep very lightly and have tons of dreams that wake me up. I cant remember the last time I felt rested. I think its her way of preparing me for whats coming in 4 months!

Speaking of 4 months, uhm, really? I cant believe there are only 4 months until we have this baby. That is simply crazy.

I am a bit overwhelmed with the amount of "stuff" we need to get done before her arrival. I need to schedule the 3D ultrasound, continue registering, visit the church we may have her baptism at, find a maternity photographer, catch up on the pregnancy scrapbook, find a pediatrician, etc. Lets be honest, I know I'm forgetting a lot here. I am thankful to have these items on my to-do list!!

Ill leave you with the very few pictures of our Babymoon..

Sleeping at the hospital

After they told me I could go home!

Hydratin' that baby

22 Weeks Pregnant

I HAD to document this day. For the first time in our life together, Tom had a sunburn and I did not. Shocker!

Pinky Doo

Poor (dumb) Baby!

Trying to catch up on sleep

4th of July

Our joke of a rental car, that they charged us $84 extra because we're "underage"

Hadley's LAST flight in utero

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Another Letter

My Peanut-Twenty days ago, the doctors told us you are a little girl. We knew it in our hearts all along. These past weeks have been amazing as we have been able to call you she, our darling daughter. We have many nickames for you already-Lovebug, Princess, Bella, Joey and Peanut, of course. We have also chosen a name for you-Hadley Elizabeth. Elizabeth is Mamas middle name, too. We will always share that.

Hadley, we can not wait to hold you in our arms. You are Daddys girl and Mamas world.

We love you.

Mama and Daddy

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

22 Weeks

I really need an uplifting post after all this drama. Doctor says-ALL IS WELL WITH THE PEANUT! Mama can exhale for the first time in 5 days. I am done worrying. I am going to drink liquids all day long from now until November. I am going to go back to being in heaven while carrying our little girl.

How far along? 22 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 4 lbs.
Maternity clothes? Same story
Sleep: Not good this week, even before the worry
Best moment this week: Laying in the pool, while hydrated!
Movement: Contractions felt like movement..ugh
Food cravings: Slurpee
Gender: Girl
Labor Signs: Were only temporary, thank God
Belly Button in or out? Barely in
What I miss: Being a problem free patient
What I am looking forward to: 24 weeks=viability
Weekly Wisdom: When in doubt, get checked out. <~~I even made it rhyme..
Milestones: There is officially no mistaking it, I look pregnant.

We did start our registry on Monday night. I went feeling very prepared. I read over the Baby Bargains book many times, broke items down in a specific order, browsed the website beforehand...and it was still overwhelming. We are registering at two places, so we spent about 2 hours at the first and will go to the second later this week or next week. There is so much more I need to do, I am not one to wait until the last minute.

We have also decided on a name. I want to say its 100% sure, but I also want to leave myself room in case we change our minds in the next 4 months. I will share it later this week. :)

Finishing Up

Continuing on..

I walked out of the hospital, still scared to death. Every little movement in my body was analyzed..I couldn't tell what was her moving and what was a contraction while in the hospital, how was I supposed to do so out of the hospital?

I couldn't wait to shower and relax all day. Of course, I was drinking water like it was my job, the entire time. Tom was taking really good care of me and making sure I had fluid at all times. We went to a mall later in the evening, to get out of the heat. Tom insisted I ride in a wheel chair, so I wouldn't over do it. He said I just looked like a lazy pregnant woman. Oh well, Ill do anything to keep this girl safe.

Saturday we spent by the pool again. We couldn't believe we were leaving the next day. We went to dinner at Johns Pass that night and walked around a bit. I had the same pain on the way to eat, so it doesn't always correspond with food. We returned to the condo just in time for fireworks. You could see about 15 different displays! There were two that were close, the rest were scattered. It was really neat.

Sunday, we clean and packed and hopped in the pool before we left. I didn't sleep much as I was worried about the flight. All of a sudden, we were in the car, driving back to the rental place. How quickly those few days went by! We had a row to ourselves again on the return flight and watched CSI episodes to keep my mind off my moving tummy. The flight was super bumpy; luckily I only had to get up for the bathroom once.

I was relieved to be on land in Chicago, knowing that was her last flight in utero. Ahhhhh!!

In reality, our trip accomplished what we wanted-Tom taking the police exam. I am really upset we missed our photo shoot. I'm sad we spent the whole time worrying. I wish we could have spent 4 blissful days dreaming of our baby girl and our fast approaching life.

That being said, I am so thankful all is well for now. Thank you for your prayers! I go to see my doctor tonight and am anxious for her to tell me that Peanut will continue to cook for 15 more weeks! We are so not ready for her arrival!

Monday, July 6, 2009

St. Petersburg General

Where do I begin?

How do I put in words the amount of worry, helplessness and stress we have been through the past few days?

Oh yeah, you girls get it. :)

So, I had posted about having indigestion. It all started last Monday night. I called my doctor Wednesday and she agreed that's what it sounded like. She suggested Tums and Mylanta. I mentioned I was going out of town and she didn't see a problem.

Our flight was at 7am on Thursday. We woke at 4:30 to get there in time. We giggled as each step of our day went so perfectly. You know that scene from Meet the Fockers? It was like that..great flight, first bag off the belt(I ended up checking one), walking out to see a shuttle just pulling up, etc. We were waiting for our hiccup..

We got our rental car and continued our adventure. We had to find the location where Toms test was being held. We did so and had about 2 hours until he needed to be there. Of course, there wasn't much Target, no mall, just odd shops and a movie theatre. At this point, I'm still feeling great. I purposely didn't eat much in fear of the pain or drink much so I wouldn't have to pee while on the plane! We wasted time and I ended up walking a bit and then lounging in the car. Luckily he was out of there quickly and passed with 91%! By then, I was exhausted and starting to feel sick.

We stopped by the condo quickly and then headed to Walmart. I wanted to get my nails done before our big photo shoot that night. I had spoken with the photographer earlier, as she was concerned about the weather. I was still hoping it would work out. Tom got some groceries while I got a manicure and pedicure. I was feeling pretty crappy..a huge headache decided to join my symptoms. We went back to the condo, Tom went in the pool and I just layed there watching tv. I didn't want to sit up, eat, talk, anything. I was desperately trying to get rid of the headache. I took Tylonel, drank a Pepsi, had a wash cloth on my forehead, tried to fall asleep..nothing was helping. I did speak with the photographer again and had to cancel. I was very, very sad. Part of it was the weather. I didn't want to force myself to get ready, drive 45 minutes and then be poured on. Another part of me felt relieved because I wouldn't have to try and shower!

Tom was starving and ran to Burger King. One bridge was closed so it ended up taking him over 40 minutes. In those 40 minutes, I went from somewhat calm to freaking out. I was trying to search on WebMD, but couldn't get the internet to work. I called my sister and she said I should call my doctor and go to a hospital. I called Tom crying, saying I thought something was wrong. He ran inside, I gained composure and we were off..

I have a very high pain tolerance. I have been told so my entire life. I never would have gone to the hospital if I wasn't pregnant. Plus, I knew they would send me to Labor and Delivery. That is NOT where I wanted to be at 22 weeks pregnant. I was worried about the baby and gave in.

We arrived at about 9:30 pm and sure enough, got sent right up to L & D. I was asked all the typical questions, got in a gown and had the preliminary stuff done. She checked her heartbeat right away, which sounded great. The nurse asked if I had any contractions and I said no. She hooked me up to the monitor and waited a few minutes. I joked that she was trying to kick it off. The nurse says, well, those are not kicks, those are contractions. Uhm, what? I had no idea! She said I was surely dehydrated and that can upset the uterus. She hooked me up to an IV pretty quickly to stop them. The nurse talked to the on-call doctor and he decided to admit me. It truly never crossed my mind that we would be staying there..I would have grabbed my glasses and some socks!

The next issue was my abdominal pain. We knew it wasn't affecting the baby because it was so high. She took some blood and I had a sonogram of the area. Everything major checked out just fine. They moved us to a different room with a bed for my Tommy. Oh Tom, he was one worried Daddy. He was white as a ghost the entire time they were checking me out. He was so glad to hear his girls weren't in any major danger.

We tried to sleep, but it was hard. I had to get up to pee a few times; IV in tow. I likely slept 3 hours total, after sleeping 5 the night before. Luckily, the doctor came in somewhat early to check me out. He said all the important stuff looked good and he didn't want me to spend my vacation in the hospital. He told me to take it easy the rest of the vacation and check with my own doctor upon return.

So, I spent 13 hours in the hospital, and left without many answers...

*Ill continue tomorrow, its my bedtime*

Friday, July 3, 2009

Hospital Visit

Well, our relaxing babymoon hasn't started the way we anticipated. Last night was spent in labor and delivery at St. Petersburg General Hospital...

There are a lot of details that I'll go into later. I keep losing internet connection and don't have time right now. Mainly, I was dehydrated, having contractions and dealing with upper abdominal pain.

They hydrated me, the contractions ceased and then they tried to figure out what the pain was from. They didn't find anything major and let me go home earlier today. I am a little worried about flying home Sunday. Please say a prayer that we get home safely and Peanut keeps cooking for 15 more weeks.

Thank you!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Off to Florida

We are heading to Florida early tomorrow, so I thought Id do a quick update. I have entered a new phase of pregnancy..the emotional one. I have mentioned before that I pride myself in being a tough woman who keeps her emotions in check. Apparently my pregnant self doesnt give a crap about that. I left Mikeys bday party angry and upset after my sister kept talking negatively about the name we chose for the baby. I called Tom in tears yesterday because I am so stressed about everything. Everything, time going too quickly, the house not selling, etc. I find myself getting choked up when I am listening to a song or thinking hard about something. I hope this is temporary because I dont feel like myself.

Another new pregnancy issue is indegestion. Or at least thats what I think it is. I have been having this bad pain and discomfort for the past 3 days. It is after I eat and lasts a long time. I called the nurse today to see what I can take to keep it at bay. She is going to call me back. I dont want to be in FL and be uncomfortable every time I eat.

Our flight is at 7 am, meaning we will leave the house at 5 am. I have to work until 8 tonight and then go home, pack and try and get a decent amount of sleep. Tom doesnt want us to check any bags, so I am scrambling to remember what the rules on carry ons are!

Tomorrow is our one and only busy day. We arrive at 10:30 am and Toms test is at 1:00 pm. We have a few short hours to get our rental car and find the location. Im going to hang out while he does the test. I am hoping to find a nail salon. :) Then, we will drive to the condo and have to leave again at 6:30 to meet with our photographer. I am super excited about these pictures. I just hope we look okay in them. We have no plans Friday or Saturday. I am hoping to find a festival of some sort to entertain us. I plan on soaking up the sun while enjoying a few good books and listening to my IPOD. I think we will do one nice dinner while there. I am such a planner but sometimes its nice to have a blank day or two. We are planning on heading home in the afternoon Sunday. We are flying on pink passes, aka standby, so that may change.

I still havent taken a 21 weeks belly shot. I will try to remember tonight. I wish everyone a safe and fun holiday weekend.

One more thing..we are planning on starting our registry Monday evening, if were not too tired. To all the Mommys out there-Advice? Is there one item you couldnt live without? What did you end up not using? Please share your wisdom with me, as I have been around children my entire life, but never had one of my own. :0)

Here are my 21 week pictures. I feel pretty big, but very happy! One perk of my expanding boobs look smaller! Woo-hoo! I plan on tanning that egg belly this weekend! Princess is kicking away as I type. I want to be pregnant forever, so I will always feel that..