Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Thank You

Somehow, Thanksgiving is tomorrow! I wanted to do a long post of all the things I am thankful for this year. Key term in that sentence is wanted. I have a busy day ahead of me in preparing for our vacation tomorrow. I did, however, want to take a few minutes to say how thankful I am for this blog.

Having this blog the past few months has totally changed my struggle with infertility. It is amazing how close I feel to some of you. Your words of encouragement are so appreciated!
Recently, a lot of people have "come out of hiding", saying they have been following my story. I am humbled to think that our story is worth following.

If you have been reading my blog, please let me know. I would like to be reading yours. I enjoy reading everyone stories and putting my two cents in. :)

Again, thank you to anyone that has reached out to me over the past few months. Your opinions and advice are beyond helpful! I patiently await the day that I can be an example of hope for others.

Thank you from the bottom of my aching heart.

Wishing all of you a Happy Thanksgiving! Tom and I are off to Vegas tomorrow afternoon..

PS-I haven't decided if I will be testing early yet. I will not be testing tomorrow, but may on Friday or Saturday. You'll just have to wait to find out..

Monday, November 24, 2008

Friend Details

My thoughts are somewhat clear enough to add some details/backround to the story.

My friend is 22 years old and going to college. The baby's dad is her previous long-time boyfriend. She met him in IL and he was originally from northern IN. They decided after a few months of dating to move to Indianapolis together. Everything was great until a little after their year anniversary. They broke up and the boyfriend moved in with his Uncle, while my friend stayed at the apartment until the lease was up. She then moved into a home with some girlfriends. They were on bad terms for a few months and then had started talking again around her birthday in September. Apparently they had been doing more than talking, and she is now 5 weeks pregnant. Oh yeah, and she is adopted.

First off, I am flattered that she would think of us first. I think that says a lot about us as people, a couple, future parents. Here are some of my concerns:
1. She is a tiny girl. Im talking 5 feet and 100 lbs. She could still have pregnancy complications.
2. When she tells her family, they could want her to keep it.
3. She could grow attached as time goes on and decide against it.

Like I said, Tom and I have never even discussed adoption. We really want our own children. Plus, we are young with little savings thanks to treatments, so we would never be approved or could afford it. But this is a totally differnt situation. I mean, if it came down to the baby going to a stranger or to us...why not us?

I had originally been gearing my 2ww stresses to thoughts about our trip. Now, they are being overpowered by this situation. I am still hoping this is the cycle that worked for us. I went for my progesterone check this morning and it was 23.9. Better than its ever been!

I am torn on whether I should test on Thursday. Any advice, ladies? Should I test and see a positive, I would be over the moon happy our entire vacation. If I saw a negative, it could really damper the mood. If I don't test, I could drink while being pregnant on vacation. Is Thursday too soon? And to anyone that got a recent BFP, what was your progesterone level the week before? I am trying to prepare myself for the results, either way...Please, any input would help!