Wednesday, April 3, 2013

This Blog..

I have a few things I want to say about this blog.


First, I have gotten so many sweet emails lately and I am constantly reminded why I keep up with it. Women have emailed me congratulating me, asking for advice, giving advice, etc. I love when our story touches someone enough for them to take a moment out of their day to send a personal email. For anyone that may not know, my email is TERobertson18@aol.com. 

Ive been thinking a lot about where I want to go with it. I feel like my kids are a little too exposed. I post pics of them on fbook, instagram, here. I think its just too much. Of course, my fbook and ig are private, but I realize anything you put on the internet isnt completely safe. This blog has no privacy settings, which is something I have always liked. I love sharing our story. I have connected with some families for over 4 years now! 

In addition to that, Ive always kept blog friends separate from real life. No one in my life knows about my blog. Well, until lately. A few people have come across it and I dont really mind..its just that know the two are overlapping. I am very open and honest here. I talk about very personal issues. Some things I am more comfortable sharing with internet "strangers" than friends.

So, Im not sure what to do. I considered moving over to blogpress because you can make posts private. I dont want to delete everything here. I use it as a reference all the time! Baby stats? Check the blog. What was my beta with Gavin? Check the blog. If I do stay here, I need to do some updates. My header is from when Trevor was 6 months old. Yikes. 

The friendships I have made here are so special to me. I have confided in a lot of twin moms lately, checking in to see when they had their babies..if there were complications..what gear they loved. Infertility scars run deep and its comforting to have so many cheering us on and hoping for the best.

The best thing I got out of writing here is Evan. Years ago, we were two young girls, being thrown into IVF cycles at the same time. We held eachothers hands(virtually) and made a little pact. Get Evan pregnant, get Erin pregnant and then introduce our babies at Disney. We did it! In September 2010, I hugged Evan for the first time and laid my eyes on the most perfect triplets Ive ever seen. Since then, we have visited numerous times, experienced more fertility treatments, celebrated birthdays, experienced heartbreak..and more births. Evan is done having children and I was petrified that my FET wouldnt work. After all, I only got pregnant when she did. Months ago, I told her my new pact was to get pregnant, get Tom the job and then I would come visit. They both happened..flights went on sale and BAM, we are heading down to visit!!

Next Tuesday, I will fly down to Atlanta with the boys and hang with the Hopkins crew! Wednesday, Evan and I will load up the car with 4 little boys and drive down to Disney. We will spend Thursday and Friday at the parks. Saturday, Evan will head home and I will fly home that evening. My brother and his fiance and parents will be in Orlando, looking at wedding venues. We are flying home with them, which will be so helpful! I am really looking forward to it!

In baby news, we find out the genders 2 weeks from today! And we are set on names if its two boys or two girls. The boy/girl combo is still up in the air. I am relieved we came up with such perfect names..

Hope everyone is having a great week!

55 comments:

Kelly said...

Please don't go away! I love reading and sharing in your adventure. It still amazes me that I've been here long enough to see two miracles be born (and YAY for two more!!!!!) and look forward to seeing what's ahead.

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Mary said...

I hope you don't go private I enjoy your blog so much! YOu can't cut us out now that there's twins on the way :)

Robin S said...

I have also never commented, but I really hope that you continue to blog here! I haven't personally struggled with infertility, but know many who have/do. I have smiled, laughed and cried over the things you've written. You have an incredible family, and I too look forward to seeing what's ahead.

Sarah said...

No!! I second that! I am a new reader and have never commented but I love your blog! I have boy/girl twins and love reading other adventures of twin moms! If you do go private, can you wait until after the babies are born?? I have to see them! Haha! Congrats! :) (sorry, accidentally deleted my first comment)

Mrs.Joe said...

I know I haven't commented or emailed in a while, and I didn't really do so that often, but just the other day I was going through my old blog posts and reading the comments in the first few days of finding out about BabyJoe. Your words were so sweet and this blog was so inpsiring to me in a time when I needed it. I hope if you do go private, you will share a password - I would love to know how your beautiful story plays out!

Fiamma said...

I adore your blog! and hope you don't go private (simply for my selfish purposes of seeing the twins!)
Love your blog!
Fiamma from NYC

Leslie Lambert said...

I absolutely love following your blog...I hope you stay around! And you know the offer to update anything on the blog is always open. :) Email me if you decide to do anything!

Val said...

I really hope you continue to blog here! I have loved following your story.
Can't wait to find out what you are having!
~Val

Ashley said...

Please don't delete your blog!! I love reading about your beautiful boys! But I totally understand.

Triple Threat said...

Would hate to see you leave :( Through you, I found Evan too and our stories are so similar and as far as you're concerned, you tell it like it is and that's refreshing and awesome. I will support you in whatever decision you make, as I know you're making it for your family in mind and that's the most important. This being said... I would truly miss your updates, your honesty and your loyalty!! Can't wait for gender reveal, I've got my votes in ;)

Pam said...

Wow, you always have so much going on, don't know how you do it....oh yeah, you're young! I realized this morning when I had to take my grand daughter to the sitter before coming to work, why we have children young in life! They are so much fun and grow up so fast, just enjoy every minute!

Oh yeah, I think boy / girl and I can't wait to find out! Have a safe trip and take care. A friend in East Texas, Pam.

Allison said...

I agree with everyone else. I love reading your blog so much! I feel like I know you and we have never even met! :)

April said...

Maybe you should just make some posts private, just for you! You can't go anywhere else! :)

Holly said...

That was such a great post! I know I have struggled with many of those same feelings within the blog world. I feel like I love sharing my story and love when I can be real and share feelings but it always comes back to haunt me in "real life" when people read. I hate when I have to say, "go read it on the blog, I'm sick of telling the story"....LOL! But I look at it as my story for my children to look at when they are older. So, please stay!! :) (But...I would disable the left click!)

Kalle said...

I've really enjoyed following your journey and have really appreciated your honesty here. I totally understand about real life and blog friends separate though - I haven't shared my blog with my real life friends either. it's sometimes just easier to share to strangers. If you do decide to go private could I have an invite to keep following?

Crystal said...

Oh no! Although I do not comment very often, I have enjoyed following you through IVF with T then G and now 2 miracles on the way! Please keep telling your story! :)

Ashley Zimmerman said...

I love reading your blog. I found it when we were struggling to get pregnant. I hope you continue to blog here..but if you do go private I completely understand. My blog is private because it's the only way my husband is comfortable with it.

Ketti said...

I totally understand the concern about privacy and safety for the kiddos, but I too will be disappointed if you stop blogging here! I have followed your story since you were pregnant with Trevor and it has been awesome to see this happy story and see you continue to get your "happily ever after"! :) Maybe you could just make sure to avoid posting too much "location" type info - like never give info about where the kiddos go to school, that type of thing. And maybe watermark your photos so people can't steal them as their own? I hope you find a way to feel safe about continuing to blog because a lot of us would really miss you and your story! :)

JRSLP said...

Hi Erin,
I have been reading your blog since you became pregnant with Trevor and have loved reading your story. You are an incredible mom and I hope I can be as good of a mom as you to my little girl. Your family is an inspiration to us all. I hope you will continue your story online, even if it's just periodic updates, but fully understand if you and Tom choose not to. Your family's safety comes first. Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy with your two miracles!

Jamie Pennington said...

Erin
Just want to let you know I really enjoy your blog. I live in Princeton Illinois. I have a blog www.penningtontree.blogspot.com Hopefully you will continue to blog, I keep you in my prayers daily with your little cupcakes too:)

Jamie Pennington

Lindsay Pavkovich said...

I hope you don't go anywhere, I am anxious to see where your life takes you once you have the twins. Such an exciting time!

A said...

I've been following since you were pregnant with Trevor (right around when you found out He wasn't a she :). Your blog is seriously the ONLY blog I have bookmarked on my phone and check daily! I love love love following your story and would probably cry if you stopped blogging for us! ;) (but seriously!)

Stephanie Busing said...

Erin, I don't know that I've commented before now, but I have been following your blog since your first miracle! Your optimism and determination are inspiring. As a Mama who also blogs I can empathize with your feelings that you expressed in this post. I do have fellow blogger friends who have gone private and allow us to still follow in their journeys via inviting us. I hope you continue to blog as I love following your family.

Juliann said...

No please don't go...

Diane said...

Whoa! I have been reading since before your first IVF. I have had to cut back on the number of blogs I follow, but yours is in the top 5! Please don't go away...1417

Trish said...

Hi Erin,
I too have been following your blog for quite some time and I love watching your family grow. You are such an amazing Mom. Please don't stop blogging. You have given me hope during our infertility struggles.
Can't wait to find out the genders.
Trish

Stacey said...

I can understand you wanting the privacy its a scary world, I would just give the password to the ones that follow you and the boys and maybe girls?? Just my thoughts, we all really love you. I am a twin mama too, twin boys born at 36w5d.

Good lucky at the US! They always hurt the farther along you get.

MINDYE said...

Ditto everyone! I think I will die if I don't get to see your twins! :-) My daughter is pregnant with twins now and is due Oct. 12. I have been following since the beginning, love it.

Jillian said...

Although I've been reading your blog since Trevor was less than a year old, I have never commented, but I really hope that you continue to blog here! You are so sweet and positive and I just love reading about your adorable family. I would be sad if I couldn't follow along with your adventures in parenting, but I totally understand that you must do what it right for you and your family.

Mayor's Girl said...

Erin, I rarely comment but I've been reading your blog for years! I found it while I was searching trying to support my best friend who was going through fertility treatments. I had a miscarriage the same day as you in 2011, and your blog was a huge comfort and support to me. I would HATE for you to go private, but I completly understand. I have a blog, but I rarely post because I've always been worried about who sees it. But, I hope you stay public until those twins are born:) love seeing all your updates!

Stich Family said...

Oh Erin PLEASE don't go away! I feel like all the other readers...I comment every so often but your blog is one of my very favorites, and one of the few I still follow. I LOVE hearing your stories and can't wait to see those twins!

LemNana said...

I have been following your blog since before your first pregnancy. I don't post, but I love following your experiences. I enjoy watching you accomplish and succeed. I truly hope you don't go private...

Vicki said...

I agree with everyone. Please don't ditch this blog! I've followed since your journey for Trevor, although I've only commented once or twice. We're the same age, and in a lot of ways you have the life I dreamed of for myself at our age... married, beautiful babies, family. I spent college and since very devoted to education and career (which paid off since I'm attorney doing my dream job) but haven't "settled down (or anywhere close.) Getting off track but anyway, I got hooked into your story and I love following along...

--Vicki in NJ

One Ordinary Family said...

I'd be sad if you went away, but I totally get it. There are other things you can do to keep things more private without totally throwing in the towel. All of your readers at least want to see the twins. :-)

Jessica said...

I'd be so sad if I couldn't check in with you and see how things are going! I have been reading your blog since you got pregnant with Trevor and I was pregnant with my second baby. I can completely understand your concerns about privacy and exposure though. Maybe you can make the blog private? I hope you don't decide to leave it altogether!

mom7 said...

I enjoy your blog so much and have included you and your family in my prayers. I hope you keep the blog going. You are one of a very few honest mommy bloggers and I hope you keep it going.

kristi said...

I would miss your updates also. I have a 17yr old conceived naturally and an 8yr old, 2 ye old and 13 month old twins all via IVF. Baby B was our 1st girl. This year has been a gigantic blur! I can't wait to hear how crazy life gets for you with the twins. ;)

brandy said...

I would completely understand if you went private. I made the blog about my family private a few months ago for the very reason. I still wanted to try to blog nonpersonal info on a separate blog, but it seems much harder. I still have my www.unworthyoftheblessings.blogspot.com, but only give access to friends/family/other bloggers that I communicate with. If you make your blog "private" would you allow people to email you and request access (if you recognize them from the blog world)? I enjoy reading your journey! It is awesome that you have been so open and shared so much.
Brandy

Tracy said...

You know I love your blog for many reasons!! Yours was one of the first I came across when you were going through your Ivf cycle with getting pregnant with Trevor and we had just went through a failed one.. although i didnt blog then but wish i did. i totally get what you mean though about sharing so much and exposing the kids..I have thought about making ours private numerous times for those same reasons and I know I don't get even close to as many followers as you. I am glad we have became 'virtual' friends through this blog of yours though!!

Brandi Buehrer said...

I also hope you dont leave the blog world but understand if you do.
I have followed your story for a while now when I found you through a friend of mine.
My story is very similar to yours and I concieved b/g twins through IVF after several years trying.
I also have a blog: http://buehrers.blogspot.com if you would like to follow me and if you ever have any questions please dont hesitate to ask.

Tiffani Bagby said...

Hi Erin, we met at the triplets birthday party a few years ago. I check the blog several times a week. Please don't leave!! I enjoy reading about you and your sweet boys and can't wait to read about the twins :)

Sue said...

I have read your blog since I discovered it through my niece when she was having fertility problems and I have enjoyed reading about all of your experiences since before Trevor. I would miss your updates for sure but you have to do what you feel is best for your children. Hopefully you wont stop posting before the twins are born!!

Courtney said...

I hope you keep it public! I have just found your blog and LOVE it. I'd hate to miss out on your cupcake twins' pregnancy news!

Anna said...

I hope you keep blogging here! I was going through infertility for a few years and it was so encouraging to read about people who went through the same thing and then had their dreams come true. :) Now, even though I'm unexpectedly divorced (Life throws you curveballs), I still felt so happy for you when you announced your twin pregnancy. Congrats on your pregnancy and I hope you get your girl!

Cori said...

Don't gooooo! You're my fave

malibukat said...

I enjoy reading your blog, and getting to see your kids grow. I would really miss reading your blogs, and like some of the others, I would love to be able to see your twins.
I know we don't know each other personally, but I enjoy your family.

Christie said...

While I have never commented, I just wanted to say I hope you continue to share your story. With that being said it is important to do what you feel best for your family. Either way, I wish you all the best in the future.

Colleen Hunkus said...

I also love following your sweet family on your blog and would be so sad to see you go private!! Im so excited to see what your twins are-hoping for two little girls for you!!!

Leah said...

Love your blog and would really miss it! I totally understand if you do decide to stop though.

Kelly said...

Oh man, I really hope you don't go away. I love reading your blog and keeping updated with your li :)fe

nicole said...

Please don't stop blogging!! You are such an inspiration to me!!
I have followed you since right before you got pregnant with Gavin! I also stuggle with fertility! I got pregnant with my son via IUI just a few weeks before you. It was nice to read your weekly updates and see that some of what I was feeling and going thru was normal!!
I can't wait to see these sweet babies!!

mj said...

Please dont stop blogging! I found your blog while going through my struggle for our baby and it was so nice to read about someone who was so raw and real. Your boys are so cute and I cant wait to hear the genders of the twins! I also love following you on IG.
Have a blast on your trip, I cant wait to see pictures!
Molly

The Caldwells said...

Don't go private and if you do, I want an in! :-) Been following for years.

Whitney S said...

Oh I hope you don't go private! I think I have only commented one other time, but I have kept up with your journey since Trevor was a wee one! I am excited to watch your family grow and witness the twin excitement!