Here's a timeline of the past weeks:
May 9-The nurse calls with the beta being zero. I talked with her for a bit about meeting with Dr. M to discuss moving forward. I didn't want to rush into a FET cycle without speaking with him. I felt like there should be some test we didn't do to find out why this is happening. That being said, I knew it would be tough to meet him before my period came if we did want to go forward right away. Add that to us only being able to meet late evening or on Fri/Sat when Tom is off, I was sure we would be waiting. I was shocked to find out he had a cancellation the following day for 6:30pm. Perfect! We would have to miss Trevor's swim class, but were excited to get some answers so soon.
May 10-Meet with Dr. M. He said everything was perfect and he still says it was one of the best cycles ever, yet it didn't work. He kept comparing it to a slot machine. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. I wanted him to change something for next time and he said theres no reason to. I asked what other testing we could do and he said none. There is an option for recurrent miscarriage testing but its out of pocket and unnecessary, according to him. He said even with my past, there is no greater risk of me having another miscarriage if a future cycle works. We asked about taking time off and he said there is no research that shows that helps anything, other than your mental state, of course. We ended up with 8 beautiful embryos frozen, all in single vials. We left feeling blank. We got no answers to why this has been happening other than its bad luck.
May 11-Tom and I talk and talk and talk. What should we do? He tells me its whatever I want, its my body that's been through everything the past 6 months. We end up making a little plan, short term and long. More on that later.
May 12-After 2 days of spotting, full flow period. CD1 for FET #3. Start birth control pills.
May 13-May 16-Have major issues with filling my Lupron script. There is a national backorder and I spoke with 5 different pharmacies, the nurse at least 4 times, the insurance company, etc. Turns out, there was NO Lupron anywhere so the nurse told me they could give me the one and only 2 week kit they had at the office and I could replace it when Lupron becomes available again. Phew! Tommy had to drive to the office after work to get me more BC and the Lupron. I did my first injection that evening. I also ordered all of my other meds.
May 25-Last BC pill, wait for period.
May 29-Full flow, CD1
June 1-Blood and ultrasound, start estrace, lower lupron to 5 units
June 6-Up to 2 estrace/day
June 8-Blood and ultrasound, much to my shock, my lining is already 7.98 and triple stripe! They move me up an entire week and schedule my FET for June 16th. Hope creeps back..along with fear. All along, I wanted something different with this cycle. My body took care of that and made it a much shorter cycle. I hope that makes a world of difference!
June 10-Up to 6 estrace/day
June 11-Last lupron shot
June 12-Start endometrin/PIO and lower estrace to 4/day..stay on this until pregnancy test.
That brings me to today. Less than 48 hours until transfer time. I am going alone to the transfer, for the first time. I plan to splurge and buy a few magazines and keep my mind off things. I also plan to have the fullest bladder ever. We have kept this a secret from everyone..so no family knows. My Mom thinks shes keeping Trev for me to work a half day. I am self-prescribing bedrest this time around. After Tom gets off, we will head to the cottage for the weekend. Nothing is more relaxing than that!
Blood test is scheduled for Friday, June 24th at 8am. I WILL NOT be testing this time, until beta day. I'm not just saying that..I really wont. Not after my past cycles..
Next up? Our short and long term plans for getting our healthy baby in a womb.