Monday, May 2, 2011

5dp5dt

If you took my mood today and bottled it up, I think it could kill a small animal.

Seriously, I am beyond crabby and in a major funk.

It all started this morning when I peed on a stick and saw one line. Why, you ask? I don't know. I have never gotten a positive on 5 days post, but I thought that with 2 rock star blasts and having done the transfer so early, maybe I'd get lucky. I realize it may be positive tomorrow, but I'm just not feeling it today.

Trevor is a mess. He is getting the tooth next to his 4 front ones..between them and the molar. His molars were no big deal and yet this tooth apparently kills to break through. I wanted to enjoy the day with him yesterday since I was gone Saturday night and he was miserable all day. Today is even worse, he was in a bad mood since the minute he woke up. I know he is in pain, but its hard for me to give him tons of attention when I have 4 other kids to care for. He was whining and crying all morning.

I'm just stressed with life in general right now. Gas prices are killing us. Chicago is the most expensive in the entire US. Were fed up with our dogs and are torn whether to find them a home and feel like terrible owners or to keep them and continue to be unfair.

I think this 1 week wait has really taken a toll on me. Ive been here so many times before. Yet, I feel like this is a make it or move on cycle. Yes, we have at least 7 embryos frozen, but if I cant get pregnant from a fresh cycle with 2 perfect expanding blasts, what can I get pregnant from?

25 comments:

Marcie said...

It's easy to get stressed out with all that's goin on, but try to stay positive!

Lori B. said...

Dang! You do have a lot going on right now. Please know that you have a lot of people praying and thinking about you and your family right now. Here's to hoping that those two lines show up in the next few days!!

Bobbi said...

That comment about killing a small animal made me chuckle, but the rest of your post made me want to reach out and give you a hug. I know that feeling. When it seems like EVERYTHING in life is going wrong all at once and everything is out to get you. Your perspective on everything will change tomorrow, though. Why? Because you will see two lines tomorrow. :) You've got so many people rooting and praying for you. :)

Staci said...

You are anxious and Trevor's mood isn't helping. I guess misery loves company! Ruby is currently cutting 4 molars so I feel your pain there. With my first baby I tested on a Thursday and it was negative. I tested again the following Tuesday morning and it was positive. Hang in there girl!

The Harrison's said...

I am hoping for 2 lines for you tomorrow. Stay positive......

Jessica said...

Have you tried Camiia for Trevor's teething? I just discovered it for Emma and it does seem to help (though I'm still giving her Motrin, but it seems to make the Motrin work better). You can get it at Whole Foods. Other than that, please don't give up hope - being horribly cranky and negative was a symptom for me every time I was pregnant! Hang in there - just 2 more days until your beta!

wallacefamilyblog said...

hoping for two lines tomorrow for you!

Courtney said...

oh my goodness! don't lose heart! It's so early. My doc won't even test until 14 days past the transfer! So you're super early, and it's just confirmation that if you do see two lines in the next couple days that you will be sure it's from the baby.
Also, I know you know this, but Frozen cycles work! My frozen cycle is napping as I type!

Marianne said...

I'm sorry you're having such a bad day. It is too early for a positive so hang in there. As for the rest - gas prices suck right now, that's for sure. I hope the go down soon.

Thinking of you.

Erick and Kristen Cedeno, and Abbi too! said...

I'm sorry you're having a bad day!! I am praying that you see two lines soon!! And I hope Trevor gets to feeling better too!! Take care!!

Erin Crista said...

Sorry things are tough right now. :-( Praying you see 2 pink lines tomorrow!!

PS. I got my positive in the afternoon with my son on 10dpo. Just a thought!! Fingers crossed for you!

Sue said...

Praying and crossing fingers for tomorrow--keep your head up we all have hope for you :)

The Pifer's said...

STAY POSITIVE!!!! I am praying SOO hard for you!! You are an inspiration to many (esp. me!) I know this will work you just tested too early; keep thinking good thoughts...you are moody and I am an emotional basketcase and can't stop crying--lovely huh? lol!

No stressing you lil' beans need you in good spirits. Whatever God has in store for you will happpen and I am PRAYING LIKE CRAZY that it's you pregnant with one (if not more) lil' beans!!!!!!

Without Faith nothing seems possible; with it nothing seems impossible!!!

Love ya!!

Kahla said...

Sending hugs and prayers your way, you have so much going on that it can be overwhelming. Hoping tomorrow is much better for you all!

Angelwingsbaby said...

Hang in there hun I am hoping things will become less stressful soon. Nanner has been cranky too from cutting teeth and it can make for a long day sometimes.Hope tomorrow is better for you.

Serendipity said...

oh the eye teeth are freakin' miserable - D has been struggling with one for far too long now, I hope your little man cuts it quickly.

hang in there.

Jodi said...

Sorry! Bad moods stink! I'm inpatiently awaiting a BFP post from you!!!

Lindsey said...

I just came across your blog a couple weeks ago, but I haven't commented until now.
Me and my hubby live in Chicago as well, we have a 16 month old son, AND my hubby is also training for the marathon this year. :)
The reason I am finally commenting (instead of just being a creepy stalker ;)) is the dog situation. We had two dogs. Two big, crazy dogs. That we loved. But my attention shifted to Maddox the day we brought him home. I still loved my dogs, but the attention they needed was overwhelming.
We eventually gave one of them to my parents, they were just going to keep him until we had a bigger place/maddox was older etc. But it became permanent. Life is much less hectic now. I cried lots and lots of tears and felt so guilty with that decision, but life has been so much easier. Don't feel bad, it happens. :)
It sounds like you are in one of those moods today where everything is frustrating. Life gets overwhelming and some days I feel like nothing is right with the world. Believe me girl, I have been there. But all it takes is some good news ;) or a few hours to yourself and you will be good as new.
Sending you positive thoughts for two pink lines tomorrow!

Lindsey said...

P.S. do NOT get me started on gas prices. RI.DIC.U.LOUS.

"B" said...

I found your blog through a friends blogs blog blog etc ... Ya know .. Well anxiously awaiting some GREAT news from you. My husband and I are getting ready to embark on this crazy IVF journey so praying yours turns out as a success!

Jessica@The Southern Belle Baby said...

I know you're probably a nervous wreck right now, but I can promise you that there are a lot of people praying for you right now, myself included!

Angela said...

Those eye teeth are HORRIBLE! We used camilia (a natural product) with our kiddos. Maybe it'd be good for Trevor? http://www.boironusa.com/products/camilia.php

I've been praying for you every day. Stay babies, stay!

Erick and Kristen Cedeno, and Abbi too! said...

Hey Erin! I awarded you blog with the Versatile Blogger!! Check it out on my blog! Have a great day!

Mush said...

So hoping no news is good news. Thinking of you xxx

Nicole said...

So I know this is a way old post I'm commenting on, but in my 2ww nerves I was searching for some blast pics on fellow IF blogs. UGH! HATE the 2ww
Anyway though, I was wondering (and couldn't remember if you'd blogged about it) what you guys decided to do with your dogs..? We're kind of in the same issue ("torn whether to find them a home and feel like terrible owners or to keep them and continue to be unfair") because since Baby C was born we haven't been able to give them the attention we used to.
PS- are you guys keeping the baby boy's name a secret until birth like last time? I'm DYING to know since both my baby and my DH's names were on your list! :) haha