Monday, December 20, 2010

4dp5dt

I am feeling low today. Lower than I have ever felt.

I don't know what happened. I was so confident on Thursday and Friday. I felt little twinges Friday afternoon. I was sure I was pregnant.

Saturday something took a turn. I know this didn't work. I feel nothing. No sore boobs, no dizzy feeling(like with Trevor), no extreme exhaustion. Nothing.

I just want to fast forward a few days so I can take a test and get the confirmation.

And than I can try to accept it.

I have a headache, I think I'm getting an eye infection(Trevor, too) and I am sad.

37 comments:

Sarah said...

Just remember every pregnancy is different! Keep your head up! (I know this is easier said than done)
Thinking of you!

Erica said...

Don't feel down :(

I didn't do IVF with my kids, but with both of my pregnancies I didn't feel anything until I was about 4 weeks along. You are still so early.

Bobbi said...

I'm right there with ya, Sistah! Sooooo hard. :(

Amy said...

FET are just as hard as a fresh cycle...at least to me. Hang in there. Hopefully the next few days will fly by for you. I'll be looking forward to seeing your results.

Erin said...

I felt zip, nada, nothing before I got my BFP and now I am 14 weeks pregnant and I still don't have any side effects. Keep your chin up and don't let that doubt start creeping in. I am routing for a BFP in a few days!

Triple Threat said...

I did IVF after 7 long years of trying and we were blessed with triplets finally after the 2nd try! However, after my 2nd transfer (frozen) I didn't feel anything, nothing, not one thing...I of course thought once again that this was going to be another dissapointment but I pushed myself to be positive and then something strange happened...I was showering a few days before going in for the blood test and my hair that came out during the shampoo (you know when your hair comes out sometimes as you shower...) anyway, the hair felt wirey like pipe cleaner wire. Very strange texture and I had never heard of anything like it and I would have just ignored it had I not been "looking" for signs, so when I got out, I took a digital pregnancy test and for the 1st time in 7 years it said "pregnant." I was SUPER excited to say the least! Anyway, point being all pregnancies are different and you are an amazing person, mother and wife so if it doesn't happen, you'll get through it but don't right yourself off just yet. Give it a chance and continue with positive thoughts because strength in both directions will get you through this.
On another note, eye infection-blech! I hope you and Trevor feel better soon! If you need anything feel free to write!

Evan Nicole said...

Hold that head up pretty girl. Remember PREGNANT UNTIL PROVEN OTHERWISE. And we alreaday know how strong those babies are, look at what they already went through to get inside you. Love you!

Meagan said...

I agree with everyone else. Try to be positive. I know the sore boobs doesn't always happen with the second pregnancy if you breast fed your first for awhile.

Mrs.Joe said...

Don't give up yet! Praying for you!

Jill said...

Thinking about you every day... Keep trucking along and keep positive! Your body wants to feed off those good vibes...

Mush said...

The headache could be hormone changes and every pregnancy is different honey so you may not get the same symptoms as before. Really try hard to just chill and get through each day. Positive thinking until you know for sure otherwise.

Thinking of you loads xxx

Sarah said...

maybe this one is a girl so you're symptoms will be different? praying for a BFP!

lparsons15 said...

Ohh..so sorry you feel so down..Keep you head up! Have a wonderful christmas!

Dave and Elaine said...

I've never been pregnant a day in my life, BUT I've heard many women say their pregnancies were TOTALLY different. Chin up and prayers are being sent your way!!!

Mrs. V said...

Erin, you're always so positive, so maybe you feeling down is a symptom!! When I got my BFP with this pregnancy (currently 38 weeks), I felt totally different than I did before AF showed.

Remember, your body is different than it was when you got pg w/ Trev. I think it worked, I have a great feeling!!! Hugs!!

Alison said...

It's still early! And every cycle/transfer/pregnancy is different. I think we all have these low moments during the dreaded 2ww - keep the faith and stay positive. We're all here with you!

Hugs,
Alison

Veronica said...

Each and every one of my three pregnancies where different. You are not out of the game!

Crossing My Fingers said...

Good luck and keep your head up. Thinking of you...

twondra said...

(((HUGS))) I know the feeling of getting down. Wish I was there to give you a hug.

Amber said...

Awww, cheer up buttercup. I hope you feel better soon. *Hugs*

The Harrison's said...

Praying for BFP. Don't lose hope yet. Hugs to you.

Amber said...

Don't give up on this cycle yet! You never know - each pregnancy is different. Hope you are feeling better!!

Erin said...

Hang in there.....I may be a total stranger, but I can totally relate. I did IVF last August after a few failed attempts at IUI. Our 1st IVF attempt thankfully worked and I was sure that it didn't. I felt nothing until like 6 weeks. Not a single symptom! Now I have 2 beautiful 10 month old twin girls!!! Just try to remember you are pregnant until proven otherwise. Happy Holidays!

Once Upon A Time said...

Chin up! Although you are allowed to have moments like these, you are still most definitely pregnant until proven otherwise. Maybe the differences this time mean there's a girl in there. :) Still holding out hope for you!

The Riggs Family said...

I'll echo everyone else...every pregnancy is different. Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way. Merry Christmas!

Chelsy said...

Oh man, don't give up hope just yet. I just got a BFP last Wednesday despite every bone in my body telling me "your not pregnant." NONE of the same symptoms I had with my daughter...no BFP at 10 dpo like I had with her, no sore boobs (still not sore), no implantation bleeding. Nada. No symptoms except I didn't get my period on time. It is still early!! Praying for your peanut.

Stace said...

I'm so sorry I keep forgetting to comment on your last post... I stalked your page on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday morning until you posted. (hopefully you don't have a way to see how many times I visited, because that would be embarrassing) Anyways... I'm SO glad that it went so well on Thursday. And it's amazing that you still have two frozen babies!

That being said, I'm still thinking of you! I agree with what everyone already said-- that it's still so early, BUT I know that there is no way that will make you feel less sad or anxious about the whole thing. So instead I'll just say that I'm pulling for you and Trev and Tom and Trev's little siblings. :)

xo

Meant to be a mom said...

Awe, I'm so sorry your down.
But hey, maybe its just too early for the symptoms yet. I'm proof that every pregnancy is different. With my son I didn't feel anything until nearly 8 weeks in but with this one at 5 weeks I was sick as a dog. Just keep your held high, the prayers are still coming your way and don't get down.

t.b.f.love. said...

I'm sorry you're feeling discouraged - but remember, you have so many people praying for you :) and, like everyone else said, every pregnancy is so different.

Bren said...

Erin, I just wanted to say that with my first pregnancy (that ended in a miscarriage) I had insanely sore boobs and super tired and with this one I have barely had any symptoms and we checked and the baby is there and fine! It sometimes worries me since I had a missed micarriage but when I got that ultrasound seeing the heart I was so happy because it was the first real proof I had other then the night before of feeling super sick but before that I had barely any soreness in my boobs and didn't feel super tired. I am really hoping this worked for you. Oh and with this one I got a positive at 8 or 9 days after ovulation so the hormones were strong. I think you just have to hold on a few more days!!

Bren said...

Oh and the only symptom I had at first were headaches so maybe it's not an eye infection but hormones!!

Jessica@The Southern Belle Baby said...

Don't be discouraged! Every pregnancy is different! The only symptom I had was starting to cramp right around the BFP time, but I didn't really have much going on before then. Hang in there! It's not too much longer!

The Pifer's said...

Hey sweetie, I have never been pregnant, and I can imagine if I have I would try to compare the 2. However, try to just think positive and know that just because you felt one way with your first it may not be the same. Our God has amazing things in store for you sweet friend! Keep your pretty head held high, think positive; God will guide you down the right path you are supposed to be on! Love ya sweetie!

Jessica said...

Remember that you had a "down" day during the wait with Trevor too! The whole process is so emotional and realply screws with your mind...hang in there, only a few more days until a positive test!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Sorry you are feeling down. I hope you are feeling better today:) Going through the 2ww can make you feel up and down. Just remember you are PUPO, and try to enjoy it!

It's still so early, and there's just no way to know for sure right now. And everyones right... every pregnancy is differant. Still hoping for good news very soon:)

Also I did not have sore boobs the whole time I was preg with my
1st no lie! And their sore this time, so like I said you just can't tell for sure. Thinking positive thoughts for you!

Hugs,
Hannah

grace said...

Oh, I"m sorry you're so sad. It's such an emotional rollercoaster, this 2ww. Transfer day, so high, sure everything has worked. Then, as the days creep by, doubt creeps in.
I've had 4 transfers. Each one, I've had different "symptoms". None have been the same. From sheer exhaustion to ...nothing.

I really think your body is in good/different shape this time from chasing after a little one, so maybe you won't be noticing the little things you would otherwise notice?

Glad you had a happy weekend to take your mind off the obsessing!

jenn said...

hang in there....i know you know, but like everyone said...every pregnancy is different...after my IVF, i felt NOTHING and was sure i wasnt pregnant...boy was i wrong! i have an 11 month old to prove it! try to stay positive and busy yourself with christmas things! and trevor to keep your mind busy with fun!