Tuesday, March 31, 2009

A True Gift

Yesterday, I came home from a long day at work and was excited to have a package in the mail. Inside, was an adorable onesie from across the country, California to be exact. A sweet blog friend, by the name of Tiffany, saw this and thought of me. I am simply humbled to think she would actually purchase this and pay to send it to Chicago. They must sell different items at our Disney store, because I have never seen this before and I adore it!
Tiffany-How big is your heart? You are such a wonderful woman and will make the most amazing mother to your pumpkins. Its amazing how close I feel to you, even though we are so far away. Thank you isn't enough. I look forward to following your journey to motherhood. I honestly cant think of anyone who deserves it more.
Perfect much? I prefer Mama over Mommy AND
it has an elephant for our peanut!
A closer look..

The arrival of the package has made me really think about the "blog family" I have created. I have said it before, and will say it again...you guys hold me together. It seems as you are strangers that see pictures and read about my life. In reality, you are my friends that know more about me than most. Whether you have left a single comment, leave one every post, have sent me a personal email, sent me a package, said a prayer, crossed your fingers, expressed congratulations, or simply taken the time to read our story...THANK YOU!!
In a perfect world, I would host some sort of Chicago getaway and invite you to come meet our peanut. Anyone up for it? Hehe..

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Today is my sweet puppy Guinness' birthday! I cant believe he is 2 and we have had him in our family for almost that long. I took a few pictures this past weekend after the pups were all riled up. Here are a few of my faves.
Guinney Boy

Brothers

Someone needs a haircut..
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Peanut-2 and a half days until I see you again! I may not see you every day, but I think about you every waking moment. I can't stop dreaming about the day I get to hold you in my arms. I promise not to squeeze too tight. :) My love for you grows as each day passes. That will never stop.
Mama

Sunday, March 29, 2009

8 Weeks

How far along? 8 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: -5 lbs
Maternity clothes? None yet
Stretch marks? Not a single one on my body
Sleep: Finally, sleeping better
Best moment this week: Going to our first pregnancy related class
Movement: Nope
Food cravings: This week is was choco milk and a bowl from KFC
Gender: Sure its a girl
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Nothing
What I am looking forward to: First OB appt. next Friday
Weekly Wisdom: Stop worrying and start enjoying
Milestones: Reaching 8 weeks
Here is the belly shot. Considering the baby is the size of a raspberry, its not much of a baby bump. Its more of a bloat bump. :)





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I wanted to spend my Sunday changing out wardrobes from Winter to Spring. However, I woke up to see this outside.

I decided to uplift our spirits and keep Spring on the brain by making these. Yummm..



Come on Spring..we are SO ready!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Answers to Questions

What does your hubby do?
Tom is a driver for a sprinkler fitter company. He is also a full time student studying Criminal Justice. His dream is to be a Chicago Police Officer. The testing process for any officer is excruciating. Chicago is more difficult than most to pass. Also, they currently have a freeze on the department, but did say they will open testing in the fall. He would also love to be an officer in Florida, simply because he loves the state and he is trying to find any excuse to make me move there. Another option is to be a Cook County Corrections Officer. My father is a Cook County Sheriff. Again, this department has a freeze currently. We know that once it opens up, Tom is "in." Basically, right now we are waiting for an opportunity to open up. That day can't come soon enough.

Will you work after the baby comes?
I wish I could say no. Unfortunately, we are unable to afford me not working just yet. My dream is to be a stay at home mother until my last child is in kindergarten. I will continue to work until something in our life changes and we can keep me home!

What's the latest update on your house, any good news?
We have had a for sale by owner sign in front of the home for a while now. Since the first of the year, we have gotten countless calls on the house and shown in to multiple families. Everyone that walks through it loves it. The problem lies when they need to be approved for a loan. Apparently, a mortgage is hard to come by nowadays. A lot of families are interested in lease to buy. We were against it at first, but became open to the idea. We had one family get as far as giving all their info to us to check. Their credit report was terrible, so we didn't feel comfortable renting to them. We have decided to take the loss and list with a realtor. We may go to the house next weekend to meet with a few. I just want to be rid of the house! We need something to happen by August, when we are done house sitting.

How many more kids do you want?
We want 5 kids total. I don't know why that number. Tom is one of 3 and I am one of 4. I have always thought a family with 5 children would be ideal. I had this plan in my head for 5 children, 2 years apart, before I am 30. I will have my first at 22. However, we will not wait between children, as we planned before we knew we had problems. We have already talked about it and will do IVF again as soon as our peanut turns 1, maybe sooner.

Are you TOO excited to register for your shower?!
I am super excited. We have so many loving friends and family members that know what it took to get us to this point. I guarantee our showers will be very special.

How did you and hubby meet?
We met at a college we were both attending at the time. It was a few days before classes started and I was totally smitten by him. He introduced himself as TJ. We hit it off immediately, though neither of us were looking for a relationship. Two weeks later, we were "dating." The rest is history..

If you had to, would you go through IVF again?
We really hope we won't have to go through this again. If we are unable to get pregnant naturally, we will. We have 4 frozen embryos, we we can hopefully get a few more children out of those, before we would have to do the whole IVF process again.

I have a friend who struggling with infertility and I am a mother of two. Our friendship is really suffering, she just seems to push me away. Is there anything I can do? I was hoping since you went through the same struggles as her you could help!
I wish I had great advice to give, but I really don't. All of my friends are still in college and don't plan on having a husband for a few more years, let alone children. My advice to dealing with your friend, is just let her know how much you care. Tell her that you have no idea what she is going through, but you can be there if she needs anything. Sometimes the right words can go a long way.

When did you know Tom was the one?
I knew Tommy was the one about a month after we started dating. Here is my cheesy story: We were at Six Flags Great America with a bunch of friends. We were in line for the ride Superman and he had his arms wrapped around me for the majority of the 2 hour wait. At one point, something clicked. I never wanted him to let go. I had never felt so strong for a person before. I realized I didn't know what I would do without him. So, I decided to keep him forever.

How'd he propose?
This story is not cheesy or romantic. He did ask my Dads permission though, and I find that romantic. We were at my parents and he was leaving. I had just said goodbye and closed the door. Then, I heard a knock. I opened the door and there he was, on one knee. He gave a super cute speech. I remember him saying he wanted me to have his babies and he would love me when I am old and gray. I said yes and was so happy. After hugging and kissing, I asked him why he did it there. He told me how he was going to take me downtown and the cliche proposal, but he wanted to do it somewhere I am often, so I would think of it often. I thought that was cute. I do, however, still give him a hard time about his "sucky" proposal. He always responds by saying, "Its not where it happens, its what was said that matters." I couldn't agree more.

Where do you come up with all the ideas to go have fun?
Tom and I are constantly on the go. This is mainly because I plan our life out months in advance and he just goes along with it. I consider myself a fun person that likes to stay active and busy. As far as the ideas go, I often search online. We are huge country music fans, so we are regulars at concerts. We do enjoy seeing movies at the theatre and having dinner out. We have great friends that we do tons of activities with. I live my life by constantly having something to look forward to. It could be a vacation, family party, day with the kids, anything really. We do enjoy to occasional weekend day or night off. Usually though, we are booked every weekend. It will only get busier, as we have a huge summer ahead of us. Our cottage is done, so we will be there, spending time at the beach and on the boat. We have weddings, showers, family graduations, big birthdays, concerts, vacations..oh, and a baby to get ready for!

But I am dying to know, how you think it's a girl?
Mothers intuition? I honestly don't know. Ironically, we both would prefer a boy first. I think everyone deserves a big brother. :-) I have one and Tommy is one. Tom kind of views it as..the baby will be spoiled, so it might as well be a girl. I just have a feeling..

Do you guys have names picked out already?
We do...kinda. We have a list that we added to and removed from for the past 2 years. Now that we are finally going to have something to name, I realize how big this is. You have to consider so much! The name has to sound good at all stages of life..baby, child, teen, adult. Plus, we have a name with good nicknames. My family is big on that. Toms favorite girl name is Isabella. I like it also, but refuse to use it. It is #2 on the list of popular names right now. I don't want our little girl to forever be called Isabella R. Because, ya know she will have an Isabella F. and Isabella C. in her classes. We like unique names, just not too unique. There will be no Apple's coming out of me! We have agreed to come up with a few names for whatever sex the baby is and decide when we meet him/her. I'm sure I will share our ideas as we get closer. I'll need the feedback!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Injection Count

As I get closer and closer to being done with IVF injections, I thought it would be fun to tally how many pokes were needed to get me through it. Here are the numbers:

12-blood draws, including 3 betas.
29-subcutaneous injections, meaning in the belly. This includes Lurpon and Follistim.
66-intramuscular injections, meaning in the hip/butt. This includes Repronex, PIO and Novarel trigger. Also meaning, OUCH!
1-IV during the retrieval

Wow, that is a total of 108 pokes! Unbelievable!

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Kelly sent me this cute little survey, as I have been trying to put a Q & A session together.

WHAT DO YOU PREFER?
Loud or Quiet → Loud
Sweats or Jeans → Sweats
Phone or Camera → Camera

LASTS:
Last food you ate → Ice cream
Last movie you watched → Sex Drive
Last song you listened to → You look good in my shirt-Keith Urban
Last thing you bought → Gasoline

FAVES:
Food → I love too many to pick one
Drinks → Blue gatorade
Clothing → Summer clothes
Books → Anything by Jodi Picoult
Music → Country!!
Colors → Blue
Movies → Notebook, anything funny

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → Yes
Miracles → I am carrying one, so yes
Love at first sight → Lust maybe, love comes after
Heaven → I know some great people up there

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Tommy boy
Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → More than anything
Do you believe in God → Yes

Thanks, Kelly! The other questions asked will be answered Saturday.

Congrats to Cady on her BFP! I LOVE BFP's!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Baby Thoughts

Lots of baby related things running through my mind:

1. Today, I am feeling so thankful for where I am right now. I am thankful to be pregnant. I am thankful this baby will be born with parents that love each other more than ever before.
2. I have this frame with "All because two people fell in love" on it. I have been waiting for the day I could put our baby's ultrasound picture in it. While in the shower, I heard a song with those words in it, and remembered! Finally, the frame will be used!
3. I started our baby's scrapbook today. There are 4 pages so far. Basically, the pictures of the positive tests, cards, and the ultrasounds. I love it so far and cant wait to add each week.
4. Our meeting went well yesterday. I couldn't help but look around the room and wonder who got pregnant naturally and who had assistance.
5. I am totally in love with this swing. It is unbelievably soft and comfortable. Plus, it has chocolate brown in it, which is the color of our family room furniture.


6. We do plan on finding out the sex. However, I imagine we will still go neutral on a lot of the big items. We hope to have another baby right after this one, so we don't want to have to buy new things because everything we own is blue/pink.
7. I am planning on taking weekly belly pictures beginning this Saturday, which is 8 weeks.
8. I have never been a fan of odd numbers, but I think 11-7-09 is the most beautiful date in the world.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

OB and Vacation

I finally decided on an OB! I called yesterday to set up my first appointment. It is on April 3rd at 1:15 pm. She said I will meet with the midwife and give a full history and other info. Then, I'll have an ultrasound with the doctor, follow by some bloodwork. I cant freakin wait. I want to see that sweet baby again! There is an meeting you are asked to attend before your first appointment. They are held on Tuesday nights, so we are going tonight. Im excited to go to our first pregnancy-related class!

I have been feeling better the past few days. My voice is still kinda raspy and I have a cough, but I dont think of myself as sick anymore. I also have felt a bit of my energy come back. Still no nausea here. My sister is sick through her entire pregnancy, so I presumed I would be simliar. Then again, she is very fertile and I had no luck in that department. ;)

We are trying hard to decide on where to go on vacation. I was this close to booking a hotel in Myrtle Beach, only to realize Southwest does not fly to South Carolina. Then, I planned an entire trip to San Diego, but now we are second guessing if we should go there. It basically comes down to us spending as much on a trip like that, or spending a few extra hundred dollars and going to the Dominican Republic like we have wanted to. Such a hard decision! Not to mention we still havent gotten our big IVF bill in the mail. I am dreading that day. I hope we decide and book something soon, its almost April!

Delaneys test results came back normal. Thank you for all your support! She has to go back for another urine test in 2 weeks. Its just to make sure the blood is gone. Yay, Laney!

I have a had some great questions asked and plan on answering them soon. I will leave the option open until the weekend and get a post together sometime Saturday. You have 5 days to ask me anything you want.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Second Ultrasound

Today may be the current winner for "Best Day!"
As soon as the ultrasound wand went in, BAM, I could see the flicker of the heartbeat. It was the most beautiful sight. She turned it on for us and we got to hear the sweet sound. The heartbeat was 151 bpm. Tom and I were smiling from ear to ear with tears in our eyes. She gave us more pictures and sent us on our way.

Following that, we met with the doctor. Peanut was measuring 6w6d, which is what I am today! Everything else looked great. We are officially graduated from my RE and are released to OB. Now if I can just decide on one..

We took a trip to buy my soon-to-be-needed Bella band. Then, we went to Fridays for lunch. What a great afternoon.

Thinking back...I was ecstatic to see the positive tests, but I needed blood work to confirm it. The blood work proved the tests were right, but I needed to make sure they rose correctly. When they rose, although slow, I needed to get to the first ultrasound to make sure there was a baby. Even seeing that perfect sac, I needed to see/hear a heartbeat to make sure there was life. Well, here I am at the end of my pregnancy proof. Damn, there is life inside me. Life cant possibly get much better.

Well, if I can get over this sickness, which I have self-diagnosed as bronchitis, life would be a bit better. Only a little, though.

There is a Rascal Flatts song that sums up how I feel right now. Here is a verse from "Here"-

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here


I almost forgot. Here is our little lovebug. Whom, by the way, we are 100% convinced is a girl.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Silly Convo

I forgot to share this short conversation that took place on the way home from the parade-

A little info to better understand..Mikey is my almost 10 year old nephew. Nina is his aunt on his moms side, who has been married for a year longer than us. Her husband has a son, who is 16.

Me:Mikey, doesn't Auntie Nina want kids?
Mikey:Uhh, I don't know.
Me:I thought she would want her own kids by now.
Mikey:How do you make a baby anyway?

I look at Tom with an "Oh crap" kinda look. What do I say?

Mikey:You take shots, right?
Me:Yep, that's what you do.

Phew, crisis averted. We are REALLY messing with my niece and nephews minds. They are going to go to school one day and talk about how they got to give Auntie Erin shots to make cousins. Sigh..

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I am sicker today than yesterday. Fortunately, I am off all day tomorrow. I'm going to the chiropractor in the morning. Our ultrasound appointment is at 11am. If I feel well enough, we plan on going on an afternoon date. Well see if I am up to it.

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For those asking about Delaney-thank you! She had her ultrasound Tuesday and we are waiting the results. I am hoping they call tomorrow, so we don't have to wait until next week.

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A lot of my blog buddies have been doing Q&A sessions on their blog. Ive really enjoyed reading all the answers. You learn a lot about the person. So, I am going to give it a try. Ask anything you want..about our relationship, families, infertility struggle, future parenting plans, etc. I promise to be honest and open, as I have been since day 1. :)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Sick Mama

My cold took a turn for the worse early today. I can't stop coughing. When I cough, my ovaries hurt. After that pain, I realize how much it hurts my throat. My body aches. I am hot then cold. My nose wont stop running. I have no energy. I am totally miserable.

Any suggestions on how to rid of this naturally? I never get sick. I am not used to this!

To add a little humor, 4 year old Cayleigh said I sound like a wolf. :)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Moving On

I have been asked how I feel about there only being one peanut in my belly. I could simply answer, "Fine"...but that doesn't sound like me. Here is the long and short of it..

I am absolutely positive I felt two babies implant the day after transfer. While awaiting test results, we used the term babies. When my first hcg came back pretty high, I figured it was because there were two children releasing the hormone. Then, when I had the problem with my rising numbers, I knew we had lost one. I went into my ultrasound last week, expecting to see one baby. Trust me, I was relieved there was anything in there after the scare of slow rising numbers. As far as that lost peanut, I am sad it wont be joining our family. I try to remember it was gone before it had a heartbeat, so it wasn't really "alive." Its a sticky situation. I view our frozen embryos as our children, so wasn't this embryo placed inside me our child too?
Bottom line, I am overjoyed for our one baby. He/she is truly a fighter. We will never forget our second embryo, but will continue to feel blessed for getting one.

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Pregnancy has been pretty hard on me so far. These are not complaints, but I do want to document my feelings today, 6w3d.
~My boobs are still super sore.
~My butt hurts more than ever before.
~I have had a headache mid-day for the past 4.
~Apparently, my immune system is weakened. I never get sick, and somehow am fighting my second cold in 3 weeks.
~I am exhausted. This is the hardest part.

It goes without saying, these are all welcome feelings. I have yet to get nauseous, and will consider myself lucky until that day comes. I believe this is the baby's way of saying, "I'm here, Mama!"

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I keep thinking about what will need to be done for us to get pregnant after this baby. Will it happen naturally? Will we have to do IVF again? What insurance will we have? I am having such a hard time believing I am currently pregnant. I guess that's why I spend most of my time figuring out how Ill get pregnant next time. What a weirdo...

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We go in Friday for our second ultrasound. I'm not sure if they will release me to OB following that, or if I will have one more appt. with the fertility center. We are both really excited to see the peanut again. Less than 3 days!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Parade Weekend

Today is the first day since Thursday that I spent more than 10 minutes on the computer. I have a good excuse though, SPRING has decided to make an appearance! The weather has been gorgeous and we had a crazy, fun weekend filled with Irish festivities. Friday we went out for my friend Christina's birthday. It was a lot of fun, but I was out way past my bed time. Christina had baby Madison in October and is letting me borrow all her maternity clothes. We are about the same size and will even be coordinating with the seasons. I am thankful for that; anywhere we can save money helps! Saturday we took the three oldest kids to a local parade. There was a lady doing free face painting and I was very impressed! I even grabbed her card and gave it to my sister in case she wants to use it for Laney's next birthday.

Irish Princesses!


My sweet boys-Brady, Tommy, Mikey

Delaney Grace

Here is the awesome face painting!!

Peanuts first parade

Saturday night we went out again. My cousins band, appropriately called The Shams, was playing at a bar about 20 minutes away. My family is already loving having a permanent sober driver. Hey, I don't mind one bit! Sunday we went to the famous South side Irish parade in Chicago. I wish I could explain just how crazy things get..but there are no words. Tom was being really cute all day..touching my belly and telling me how cute I looked. Ahhh, he gives me butterflies.

Eric and Jeralyn

Elli, Jer, Me

Brandon, Eric, Tom

Sigh..end of a long day

We aren't doing anything for the actual holiday tomorrow. Simply being nearly 100% Irish is enough for me. I may stop by and grab a Shamrock shake. Otherwise, I think I have seen enough green.
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Thank you for your prayers regarding Delaney. My sister changed her ultrasound to tomorrow because she didn't want her to miss school today. We are anxious to know results.
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I need to update on my pregnancy and infertility. Stay tuned; I should find some free time tomorrow.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Good, Bad, Ugly

The Good
My ultrasound went great today! The tech found the little peanut right away. She pointed out the yolk sac and said that is the first indicator of a healthy pregnancy. It is still very early, but the doctor said everything was right on track. Yipee! We will go in next Friday to hear a heartbeat.


The Bad
My beautiful niece, Delaney, has been having some accidents the past few months. My sister had been brushing it off as a behavioral thing due to Tyler arriving. She told the doctor and he decided to do some tests to make sure it wasnt anything medical. About two weeks ago, Laney had blood drawn and a urine test. *A side note here-She couldnt wait to call me and tell me she was brave when the doctor "shot" her. She said she was just like me. So sweet..* Anyway, blood was found in her urine. The doctor is concerned and she will be having an ultrasound of her kidneys on Monday. Please keep our little Princess in your thoughts and prayers this weekend.

The Ugly
I have to continue progesterone injections until April 15th. Okay, this isnt that ugly. I'd do anything to keep this baby safe. But really, my booty is super sore and bruised!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Award and Vacation

I was nominated for this award by a few bloggers. Its about time I got around to acknowledging it. Thank you!


This one is for those who use the lemons in their lives to make lemonade, or who help do the same for others. If I read/comment on your blog, consider yourself tagged. Your stories keep me going!
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Thanks for all the suggestions for vacations. My first thought was a cruise. After a lot of research, I have found cruises in June to be very pricey. I wont force myself to pay the same amount for a 3 day cruise in June, as a 7 day cruise in October. Id rather save that trip for an off-season vacation.
I also looked into going somewhere all-inclusive, like Mexico. Again, way too expensive for us right now.
That leaves us with..the continental United States. The upside of that is we can fly anywhere for $125 round trip. My good friend, Heather, is a Southwest flight attendant. She gets these things called pink passes where you can fly on stand-by. Tom and I have used them twice before, once to FL and once to CO, and never had a problem. She will give them to us if she has any extra at the time. If not, she can ask around and usually finds someone within a day selling them for about $125/person.
Anyway, we can go anywhere Southwest flies for dirt cheap. Now, its a matter of choosing where and finding a hotel. We are too young to rent a car without super high rates, come on 25!, so that is out of the question. I really want a beach. I want the vacation to consist of laying by the pool/beach during the day, golfing for Tom, and nice dinners/shopping at night? It has to be located withint a few blocks, so we dont have to spend too much on transportation. I am going to keep browsing websites and plugging places into hotels.com. Hopefully the perfect getaway will be found soon!
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My ultrasound is in 20 hours. I want to see the reason I wont be drinking green beer at the Southside Irish parade this Sunday. :)

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Alotta Nothing

Rain, rain, go away! Seriously..it rained the ENTIRE weekend, some of yesterday, and all of today. People are going to start floating away if it doesn't stop soon. I need the sun and spring to mosey on over to Illinois!

Anywho, less than 48 hours until the ultrasound. I had a dream about it last night. I really cant wait. I peed on my last test yesterday, just to see that beautiful word-Pregnant. Ahhh..

I feel like after this ultrasound, we can really move on with our lives. Its about time!

We want to go on a vacation in June to reward ourselves for the hard work we put into makin' this baby. Any suggestions on a not-too-expensive get away? Somewhere warm; we like warm.

To everyone going through their IVF cycles, GOOD LUCK! I am rooting for all of you and cant wait to hear all the reports and see all the positives!!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Ready for Thursday

I am counting down the seconds to our ultrasound on Thursday. Sometimes my mind wanders and thinks back to our slow-rising hCG numbers. I try to avoid it and remember that I have nothing to compare it to. I also stare at this *below* and see we are considered "normal." I will be 5 weeks 5 days on Thursday. We won't likely hear a heartbeat, but all I want to see is that beautiful teeny-tiny baby.


Symptom-wise, I am still super tired. My boobs are more sore than they have ever been. I am still bloated and swear I have a belly already. I plan on purchasing the Bella Band next weekend.

This still doesn't seem real. When will it seem real?

I have been slacking in the blog world lately. I promise to pick it back up and catch up on everyones lives this week. :)

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Sweet Relief

For the first time in 48 hours, I feel at peace. My beta picked up today at 231.

The past two days were honestly the worst in my entire life. Id re-live every negative pregnancy test, times the past two years, any day..rather than go through that again.

I am going to write off that first beta as a fluke. I shouldn't have gotten blood work done that early. If I didn't, I would have gone off Monday and today's betas and been happy with the more than 60% increase in 48 hours.

I have an ultrasound scheduled for next Thursday, March 12th.

Hallelujah, today I am STILL a Mommy!

PS~As always, thank you for your concern, sweet comments and prayers.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Grab On

Peanut(s)-Please hold on tight! Mama is worried and scared. Daddy says you're a fighter. We need you more than you will ever need us. Everyone is praying for you. I hope you can hear each one. We'll love you forever.
-Mama

Help Needed

I am freaking out right now. My beta on Friday was 86. Today, it was 137. It did NOT double in three days..when it should have in two. I feel like I am going to throw up. What does this mean? Am I loosing the pregnancy? If anyone knows, please help!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

A Little Behind

Ahhh..I finally have a few minutes to sit down and catch-up. I already posted about Tom's birthday, but cant not post these pictures. Tyler is getting big quickly. I decided to do a little photo shoot before we had dinner on Tuesday.
Happy baby

I love that little smirk

So strong

My 4th blue-eyed love

Our little one will be exactly a year apart from that cutie pie. I am thinking they will be best friends. November will be a busy month for our family!

Laney and her taco face

Getting help from the kids

Braydons photo skills

Smoochin' a Princess

Laney, Brady, Tommy, Me

Happy 23rd Birthday, babe!

Tom was doing some organizing on Friday. He came across a few "cards" from me. I usually dont buy cards for holidays. I go on Word and type up how I feel. He found one given on February 24th, 2008. Here is a part of it:

"Even if I tell you every day how much you mean to me, I dont think itll ever be enough. You put the smile on my face, the drive in my mind and the love in my heart. Hopefully youll be putting a baby in my belly soon, too."

I started my medicated cycles shortly after that. If you would have told me then that it would take me a year to get pregnant, I wouldnt have believed you. We had a really rough year. There were many more downs than ups. I am trying hard to not dwell on the past and enjoy where we are right this moment. Infertility did a number on me. It affected me positively and negatively. More on that later..
Friday night, we went downtown to see Jason Michael Carroll perform. It was at Joes bar, which is a great venue with an intimate stage and awesome crowd. We went with our friends Ally and Alex. It was fun to have our little secret.

Beginning of the night
Ally and Erin

Soooo close..JMC

The Soon-To-Be's
Tom is on his way back now. One family wanted to lease to buy the home. We have had this happen a few times before and its fallen through. Lets hope our week gets even better and we sign a contract!
Tonight we are going to Cheesecake Factory. I cant wait! I can taste it already..
Hope you all had a great weekend. Hooray for March arriving!