Thursday, December 10, 2009

Bold Words


Breastfeeding is one of the things I was most looking forward to doing. When I was told Trevor would be going to the NICU, it was one of my first concerns. Would I be able to feed him? In the NICU, they monitor the baby's food intake very closely. If he had been in the room with me, he would have simply been feed with my colostrum. However, they had to supplement Trevor in the NICU to keep up with his needs. I was immediately worried whether he would be able to latch onto me after having bottles. Also, breastfeeding is not the main concern for the nurses in there. Thankfully, the lactation consultants at the hospital were phenomenal. One met with me the same day I gave birth and showed me how to pump and gave me lots of tips, advice and encouragement. The second day, another consultant spent an hour with us in the NICU, showing me proper holding techniques, answering questions and successfully got Trev to latch on. It was amazing.
I fed Trevor as often as I could, but it was difficult to work around the restrictions of the NICU. Not to mention it was hard work! I was a little worried about how he would do once discharged. I am proud to say, he is the best nurser! We had a little trouble the first few days. My milk came in the first night home and my breasts were super engorged. He had trouble grabbing on. The next day, I went to Target and bought a nipple shield. It was a exactly what I needed! We used that for a few days until I could manage my supply. One feeding I simply took it away and he was fine without it. He has been doing amazing ever since.
I adore breastfeeding him. I love the time spent together. I love knowing I am still providing for him.
My breasts are rock starts in the supply department. They think I need to feed triplets or something. I sit down for 10 minutes and pump 8 oz like its nothing. One entire shelf of our freezer is full.
I will say breastfeeding is a huge commitment. It is time consuming. You cant pass your breast to your husband for a feeding. Trevor is doing great with bottles, but does not have them often. Breastfeeding in public is a hoot. On Sunday, we took all 5 kids to the Winter Wonderfest at Navy Pier. It was a challenge to find a place to nurse Trevor while entertaining 4 other children and trying to have some privacy. That's where the Hooter Hider comes in handy. :)
I plan on exclusively breastfeeding Trevor until he one year old. However, if we do a FET in August like we intend to, I will wean him early and provide him breast milk in bottles until his birthday.
Oh yeah, my boobs are now a 38E. Never thought Id say that..

Four weeks post birth and I am still recovering. In fact, I am still bleeding. Not much, but I am sick of wearing pads every day! My tailbone pain has not gone away and I begin physical therapy for it on Friday. I called my doctor last week to let her know the pain was persisting and she said it would be pointless to do an x-ray because there is nothing they could do for it. Physical therapy is my only option. I am hoping it helps quick! Sitting is painful. Riding in the car, nursing, etc..I change positions every few minutes to try to find comfort. We saw a movie last week and for some reason, the chair hurt me so bad, I almost wanted to leave.
Other than that, I feel great. I weigh about 6 lbs less than when I got pregnant. Yipee for losing IVF weight. I have about 5-10 lbs to go until I am really happy. I need the go-ahead to do crunches so I can have a somewhat flat tummy again. I am really anxious for that 6 week appointment. I want to be able to exercise and have sex!

Speaking of sex, when will we have #2? That's the million dollar question. Birth control will NOT be used in our home. EVER. The way I see it, if we get a surprise sooner than wed like, we would be over the moon happy. Trevor took us 2 years, about $12,000 and a lot of pain to get. Wouldn't it be something if we just had sex and got pregnant?! Like those normal folk!?
I don't expect that to happen. Breastfeeding acts as birth control for most. I figure Ill fall into that category. Like I said, if we do not get pregnant on our own while bfeeding, we will attempt a FET in August. I am going to meet with my fertility doctor in the Spring and get him on board with this.

Tom. Oh, Tom. He has gone and stolen my heart again by being the best Daddy. He is completely hands on. He constantly wants to hold Trevor and kiss him. He does the dirty stuff too..baths, diapers, burps. I am able to leave Trevor with him and not worry. I look at the way he looks at Trevor..and melt. He is so proud that Trevor looks exactly like him, its ridiculous.
I love those two boys more than I ever thought possible.

My sister graduates with her Masters Degree on the 19th. We are going to Wisconsin Dells to celebrate! I am currently searching for newborn swim trunks in December..quite a challenge.
I mentioned before that I found a great Southwest sale. Well, we booked our trip to the Mall of America! Southwest was offering $25/one way tix there from Chicago! How could I pass that up? We are going MLK Day weekend, which happens to be my bday weekend. Our friends Christina and Anthony and their 1 year old Madison are also coming. We are super excited!
We are also in the process of planning our big Disney trip. Were looking into the end of April. I hope to have the week chosen, rental home booked and flights bought by the 1st. Well see.
Its amazing how much more you look forward to things like this when you have a miracle child to share it with. Trevor's first plane ride, first Mickey ears, first time in the water is better when you're heart is full.
I had 4 weeks off for maternity leave. I spent one week pregnant, one in the hospital, and two with Trevor. Tom was off for the few days in the hospital, and that was IT! Most couples take much more time off, but not us. I went back to work last Tuesday, the 1st. Remember, I am a nanny. I work M-Thursday, 10 hour days. I am thankful to be able to bring Trevor with me. I couldn't imagine going back to work and leaving him behind. My mom will keep him some mornings if I want. I imagine Ill take her up on that more often as it gets colder and the snow continues. Regardless, I really have the perfect set up. I get paid for caring for children I love and I get to be with my baby.
I have always said I was put on this Earth to be a Mother. It happens to be true. I am doing exactly what I am supposed to. I love every second of this "job." I have never felt something more natural. He just..belongs.


Kalle said...

Happy to hear about how awesome you are doing. One of the things I wasn't ready for after birth was recovery. It seemed to take forever. I'm pretty sure that it was a full 8 weeks for until I could sneeze and laugh without hurting down there. Slow and steady wins the race when it comes to recovery. :) Wishing you all the best.

Carol said...

He looks adroable in his carseat! I'm so glad that breastfeeding is going so well for you. I was not that lucky and jealous of the folks who were big producers. My breastfeeding experience was as much trouble as infertility and did not have a positive outcome trying everything I could think of, four times (four babies). And, how wonderful to have a baby-friendly job. I often think I should become a nanny as I wouldn't even be able to consider it a job as I love children so much.

Jen, Terry, and Ethan said...

He is so cute!

MysteriousMindy said...

I'm so excited to hear breastfeeding has been a positive experience for you- I shadowed a lactation consultant for 3 months in college and I fell in love...I hope to become a lactation consultant someday. I do agree that nurses are not always advocates for breastfeeding, but I'm so glad you had lactation consultants that could help you and that you were able to stick with many moms do not have those resources!

As far as your back goes- it really sounds like you might have a herniated or irritated disc that is rubbing on your nerve. I had a double herniation in 2007 as a result of a chiropractor malpractice, and it was the most painful thing ever, and it only got worse! I ended up having surgery for it, after going to see a spinal surgeon. I HIGHLY recommend going to see a specialist- physical therapy can be good, but it may likely not be a cure. I cannot recommend enough, going to get a second opinion with a spinal specialist!

It's exciting to hear that you're interested in coming up to my area at the Mall of America- it's great fun! It would be kinda cool to meet up if you're interested- if not that's totally cool. Take care and keep bringin' on the pics of your little handsome man...adorable!

Nicole said...

You sound like you couldn't be happier or doing better! (Minus the tailbone pain). It is so sweet to hear such a happy ending like this after IF. So glad you get to take Trev to work too, what a great setup :)

Courtney said...

I'm so glad breastfeeding is going well for you. I hope I have as much success. My mom said she breastfed me out of sheer determination to not clean any more bottles like she did with my brother! You are an inspiration b.t.w. with all of your trips and plans. I hope I'm able to have a lot of energy like you do to get stuff done with a little one.

Stephanie said...

I totally forgot you were a nanny when I heard you went back to work!
How wonderful to be able to bring him with you!!
We are planning a trip to Disney at the end of April too!!
Maybe I will see you and that handsome boy there! ;)

amanda said...

i LOVE the hooter hider!! it makes bfing SO much easier.

i will tell you that i got pregnant with four out of my eight pregnancies while breastfeeding. it was basically once the baby bfing started on solids that i got pregnant. :0) i know you won't 'care' but i just want to tell you that i so got pregnant! lol.

yay for bringing trevor with you to 'work'. that makes it so much easier on you i'm sure. i could not imagine leaving my kids and going to work! not fun!!

ummm. i think that's it. :0) have a great day.

Jennie said...

I never did find newborn swim stuff for my daughter in August in Arizona. She just went naked ... we were in her grandmother's pool and she didn't care :)

Jessica said...

Sounds like you are doing great! I'm glad breastfeeding is going so well, too, especially since it was so important to you.

When I read last time that you were back at work, I couldn't believe you were off such a short amount of time, but now that I know Trev gets to come with you, that is a whole different story! I get to bring Knox to work with me, too, and I think it's going to be wonderful!

twondra said...

So sweet...I love this post!!!

That Southwest sounds like a really good deal! My brother lives in Chicago and that would be nice. You'll enjoy's pretty cool! It's only an hour from us!

Joy (When Does Daddy Come Home?!) said...

YAY! I'm so glad nursing is going so well for you. I ended up stopping with my first two and I'm so proud to say I'm nursing this one!

I have heard some women can break their tailbone during delivery- is that what your doc thinks? Regardless it sounds PAINFUL and I hope it heals fast. I bled until 4 weeks so hopefully yours stops in the next few days.

kim_brough said...

Breastfeeding really isn't a birth control. It might prevent periods, but not ovulation. Just an FYI.

The Patterson's said...

Wow! Sounds like you are super busy! Glad to hear things are going well.

Amber said...

What a touching post. I can't wait to meet our little one :)

Sue said...

Oh wow, great update. So glad breastfeeding is going well! Recovery: how awesome that you weigh LESS than before getting pregnant?! So jealous! Siblings: I was wondering but didn't want to be nosy! Best of luck getting pregnant again! Vacation: What nice trips you have planned, and how nice they are now FAMILY vacations, don't you love that term? :) Work: Oooooooh--you get to take him WITH you????? How great is that? You are blessed.

As far as motherhood, isn't it great? So happy for you, you are so deserving of it.

Melinda said...

So glad everything is going so well for you!! Love your're answering some questions I've had about nursing and the recovery without even knowing it! I'm hoping nursing goes as great for me! Its the ONE thing I was disappointed in with our adoption, the inability to nurse Crista. Praying I'll be able to experience it with this pregnancy!

Keep the updates coming!!

Bailey said...

Too cute! Thanks for the comment... and yes, a Chicago road trip and photo shoot would be awesome some time! =)

Allison said...

This post made me smile!! :) Love it!

cady said...

I'm glad bfing is going so well for you. It didn't work out for me...I just don't produce enough. I'm still recovering too. I wish someone had warned me about how hard the postpartum period is!

Mrs. Hammer said...

He is soo adorable and, WOW, does he look like Tom! Glad to hear that breasfeeding is going so well and that all those bumps in the begining didn't effect your ability to nurse him :) Hope you are feeling better soon.

Heather said...

I am glad everything is going great for you guys!....I can't believe how completely happy and excited I am for you guys...even though I don't really know you!

Congrats again! guys make a beautiful family!

Jodi said...

Hi, I'm a new follower to you! I found you through the Pifer's blog.
Congrats, your son is just beautiful and I love your posts! So happy for you! Welcome to motherhood!

Stace said...

I have to say I am quite jealous of your breast feeding! :) I always had plans to breast feed, but, like you said, it's not easy when you're in the NICU (and the emotional rollercoaster of losing Connor at 2 days didn't help either). I guess next time we get pregnant! And I agree with you on the no birth control thing. I'm still secretly hoping to not have to go back down the IVF route, but am fully planning on it prior to Colby's 1st birthday.

As always, Trevor is absolutely adorable! I am so happy for you and your miracle family. :) You definitely sound like an absolute natural!


Wonderful post!!! So glad all is going well;)

Ashley said...

Erin that last comment under jc bar was me..I didn't know I was under Brandon's account;)

Stephanie RN BSN (to be!) said...

Great to hear you are doing well! I hope your tailbone heals up quickly and doesn't bother you for much longer.

I just have to say, I love seeing pictures of your new family; you are absolutely glowing! There's a sparkle in your eyes and you radiate were made to be a mommy :)

Dawn said...

Just curious. How old are the children you nanny for? You might have your hands full!! :)

Mike and Katie said...

It sounds like you're doing great. I agree about the surprise pregnancy and that's a good reason to keep pumping and storing milk. If you end up not needing it, you can donate to some one through Milk Share.

I love the stocking idea for a picture. I never thought of that. I wonder if Christiana would still fit in one.