Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Wannabe Mommy

Here I sit, in January of 2009. It is hard to believe that two years ago, I made the decision to tell Tommy that I wanted to go from a couple to a family.

As a child, I was always carrying around baby dolls. I know this is typical for most girls, but my mom says I didn't feel complete without my babies. Ironically, that is how I feel now. I love Tom with every bit I have, but I know we both have so much more love to give.

We are dying to have a child. Every day I am not a mother, I feel like the day is wasted. I am a wife, an aunt, a sister and a daughter. Why has it been so hard to add mother to that list?

11 comments:

Jesus, My Best Friend said...

i totally know what you mean. i feel incomplete without someone to call me mommy. it's really sad when you stop to think about it. so many folks can have a baby so easily but those of us that want them so badly have such a hard time. hopefully we'll get our babies before long. Praying for you to become a mommy. God is good and i believe if it is a part of His will, and i believe it is for us to have this great of a desire, we will have children!

☆ Loren ☆ said...

I know the feeling all to well. Keep your faith, not only in Christ, but in yourself! No day is a day wasted, each day is one more day of preperation before you become a Mom. Each day is one day closer to your miracle. Each day is one day closer to having your baby in your arms. God knows what he is doing! I know its hard for us to see it, but he has a plan...and in time it will show itself!!!

My prayers are with you as always!! :)

Hear My Cry said...

I'm so sorry! Praying for you!

~ n u r ~ said...

Hi im new to your blog...just browse through and come accross to your blog..my name is Nur and same ship of you..I been married for 1year ++ and now dying to have a baby...looking forward for our blog relationship...upsss im from Malaysia nway....

Christa @ Quintooples said...

Oh, I just found you on another website. I want you to know that I am praying for you. 5 short years ago I was in your situation (well, not exactly) when my wonderful doctor accidentally found what would work for me (surgery-laparoscopy for stage 4 endo). I was told I would never have children. After 4 years of trying I got pregnant with #1, and I now have 5. I can't have anymore due to fibrods and endo, but we were blessed beyond what we ever imagined. I will add you to our prayer list. I am heartbroken for you and all the other mommy's. The memories of infertility are STILL raw. (((HUGS)))

Mimi said...

My husband and I had this discussion last night. I am having a really hard time right now. I hope you feel better soon honey.

Kami

Dianne said...

Hey I came across your blog. My husband and I are starting IVF this year also. We just decided! Hopefully we can both get good news!!!! I hope you can follow my blog too!!!

Tiffany said...

I feel incomplete each and everyday, at times I even feel a sort of panic come over me when I think about a future with no children. At night trying to fall asleep is the hardest. We will be Mama's someday, somehow. I promise!

Ashley said...

I'm sorry!!! I'm praying that this is your year!!

Happily Ever After said...

I wish I could answer that question. I ask myself and my DH that question almost every day. I'm sorry.

Melissa said...

I totally know where you are coming from - I feel incomplete without someone calling me mommy. I have kids at church that adore me, but it's not the same as having a child of my own (at least as far as I know, since we have none). We're also struggling with infertility -- it hurts each day to open up social networking sites(facebook, myspace, etc) only to find out another friend is pregnant. It's heartbreaking. I pray for you and Tom -- that you will get your miracle baby! I pray for the rest us as well -- that we will also get our miracle babies. Our God is a God of miracles and wonder -- He works in His time -- not an easy thing to accept, but something we have to come to terms with regardless.

My prayers are with all of us who are struggling with infertility and/or the loss of a child.